ha,1st time blogging using a phone. its 3.15am in e morning, 5 cups of vodka & yet, am still in a sober state to write how i feel. Down, very down. i never expect things to end up like this, nor do i ever imagine i will once again, sit down & drink alone. Its great that i have good friends around, but that, cant replace e love i lost. In fact, both are different in e 1st place. In e quest of striking a balance between both,am often e one that is caught out. Hai, am really sorry to everyone, for being such a big disappointmet. Really dont know what to say & I just feel... very lost. Of all things, why do I have to lose u?