Crap

Hai, I cant seem to sleep now. Some thoughts are hanging in my mind; bad ones though.

Just had a long conversation with kai sin, she has changed alot! As in no longer e shy shy, quiet girl, can bullshit alot, haha..

Some good news

• Instead of given 2 mths to evict, I was told by my brother that we are only moving out in next year january.


• I get to go off on saturday afternoon from AOH, which means... I can go for Kyle's birthday!


• Someone said okie to accompany me to e birthday party.


• The couple thing has been resolved
  

Bad news

• I'm still awake, need to wake up at 620am later.


• Its already friday, yet this whole weekend I will be in camp except saturday.


• I cant make it for COMEX but I still got e brochures! Thx to my brother..


• This is e most recent update, someone tua me, now say she maybe cant make it, Zzzzz..

Anyway, its was a good chat, turned out to be we have quite a no. of things in common. Haha, no speculation please..

I miss.. nicoll highway.. e view..

Above (edited); Genre: Trance

What a drag.. I managed to reach home exactly at 12am. Hai, got some meeting just now, which lasted 3 1/2 hrs, e brigade has been preparing alot for e upcoming Army Open House which will be held from 30th Aug to 3rd Sep at Pasir Laba Camp. So, those interested come, please come, I will be your guide (for e girls), as for e guys go find yourself a mate! Anyway, most of e exhibits are already up & some of e exhibits with games looked quite interesting; couldnt try them out due to e inclement weather. Tomorrow most probably will be a 'zhoubo' day, guess that I can only play COH cos I already finished all my books, need to make a trip to e library soon.

Thx Peiwen! e good news really made my day :)

Unreliability is so predictable nowadays..

Finally it sets in.
FUCK la, i dont want to move house. I love my room..

Hai, was having lunch at Sushi Tei again yesterday with victor & james; had it with peiwen & beng on sat evening. Then e call came, it was my mum. The agent had found a buyer who is willing to offer a good price, above market price & my mum wanted my consent to sell e house. Of course, I wanted to say no... But she really cant manage e financial loan that is draining her every month, even when my brother & I wanted to fork out $400 each month, she rejected it, citing that it should be spent on other important things, sigh...
Next question, where will I move to?
Choices are:
a) Australia
b) Canada
c) Bahamas
d) Maldives

Maldives la, I already booked a ticket & packed my luggage liao; if only I can..

The real choices are:
a) Choa chu kang; my old secondary school days there.
b) Bukit batok
c) West coast
d) Woodlands

Alright, woodlands will be e last choice, cos I dont want to get see beng everyday. No la, its damn far from everywhere except marsiling & admiralty, it will be very troublesome for me as I do most of my deals in town. Arrr, I dont really want to think about it..
On e brighter side...
Maybe a new house will be good, afterall, most of e memories were based here for e 3 years. Ya, I received a call yesterday night, quite unexpected, as I never heard e voice for like 4 years? Sweet though. Anyway, I'm damn tire, e 21km yesterday had totally worn me down, my back & leg joints are aching like hell. Today, while in camp, I went to hide in a corner & take a nap; I woke up 3 hrs later. Lol, luckily my superiors 'allowed' it. Time to sleep liao..

When no one's watching..

Went to KK Hospital yesterday with my mum & ting, usually I wouldnt go, but it sounded serious, so I took a half day off. Turned out to be a blessing, my warrant gave me a day off instead.
It was a checkup on ting's heart cos during a routine checkup at e polyclinic, it was discovered that she has an irregular heartbeat. Hence, we were referred to KK Hospital for specialist consultation & an appointment was arranged. The initial diagnosis by e cardiac doctor; she really got an irregular heartbeat but it wasnt 100% fatal,my balls dropped. The doctor was professional, told us in a very assuring way 'Dont worry, 98% of e time, its a harmless one'. A scan had to be done to verify it; final result, it is just an innocent extra heartbeat, phew.. The little menace was smiling most of e time, idiot, I pinched her, haha!

Ya, morning met up with shiyan @ Holland village for breakfast; Laksa! Lol, laksa for breakfast, what an 'ingenious' suggestion, alright la, I love laksa anyway, wahaha.. Followed by a caramel ice blended @ Coffee bean! Lol, I remembered an idiot cant differentiate a caramel ice blended with a caramel frappuccino? Best thing was, I kept thinking that it was saturday, damn shiok la, chilling out in e morning, somemore its a weekday!

The rest of e afternoon till evening was spent at Orchard library. Initially, I wanted to find people for coffee, so I started asking. Then I realised.. Haha, its friday again! Most of them are either working or studying, arr... & I read transformer comics in e library, hehe. After e library closed, I was walking around, trying to kill time & ended up with a pair of Kappa shoes in my paper bag. Around 9pm, met up with james for a short coffee session, mainly about marcus & xiu, hai.. Siao la, after e AHM run on this sunday, it will be lunch with victor & james; then come evening, dinner with marcus & james, Zzzz..In e end, played dota with e usual morons till 4am, tiring man..

What a night..

Sorry, didnt mean to scare you. I really want & I wish that I can do more than what I can do for you now. Sigh... e walls seem so near again "smack".

I see history repeating itself; not on me... But to two of my closest friends, wish you two e best of luck(I typed laugh initially, omg) & to ride out e storm together, e best unscathed; hopefully..

arrrr..

SoMeOne Give me a wall Pls!! Hai, 2nd time liao.. Wtf is this?

Past few days...

Great, I just reached home. The last 7hrs I was @ Pasir Laba camp zhou bo; waiting for my officer to vet some documents which I had finished very early at 4pm. Sian, I was wandering around e compounds, just waiting for sms or phone calls. Initially, tied down with pradeep to have dinner, but that fucker pangseh me; in e end I skipped it cos no one to have with. So, I went in & out of e building, hoping to catch some familiar face to talk with, sadly, none. Time spent outside e building was gazing at e sky, looking for dont know what, thinking about dont know what. Maybe I'm missing someone.. Ah, e loneliness bug again.. Fuck, e water boiled liao, cooking maggie mee now, why am I cooking for myself? Zzzzz..

Friday night last week.
It was a damn boring start of e night. Stupid pageant, I shouldnt have attended, wasted 2hrs there. It was e NUS biz pageant semi-finals, marcus asked me along, so I thought james was going too. Hai, he didnt come, most probably out at sea & most of e time, marcus was with his friends. Our dear 'look like innocent' beng was there too, with his innocent friends, lol. Okie la, they must be wondering why beng have such a "beng" friend like me. As I had explained to him; need e bad ones to be around so that life will be balance. Anyway, after e event, Zouk was back to normal! Beng pangseh cos he felt that girls more important than brothers; he wanted to know one of e female finalist. So, I tagged with marcus's uni friends. Omg, most of them were 1st time clubbing & in my mind, I was already thinking of how to drunk them! Lol, marcus objected, he didnt want to send them home. Well, I became their orientation leader, sort of la, then shared $ with marcus to buy them 2 jugs of gin lime. Siqi joined us later on cos I told him I will cover his saturday afternoon for $20; of cos not so little la, it was just to bluff him down. Then, I got to know one of e girls in e group, kinda wife material type, I assumed :p wahahaha.. It was quite stupid, my phone went flat cos of e constant messaging; we didnt sms, just type out e msg in e msg box. Then we had supper with marcus & james @ tong shui cafe; e tab.. of course on me la, those 2 idiots, "when fire rob me" get it? & I got to send her home! Weee...

Saturday
Had to wake up early, still tired from e previous day clubbing. Went down to toa payoh to help siqi open shop for $20, lol. Business was frisk, alot of sk(siao kian) customer but little sales. Finally, got to go off at 530pm, hitched a ride on stephany's rented car; she just got into an accident, tried to avoid a cyclist & ended up hitting a tree, jackpot lo! Wandering around takashimaya, bought 2 nice album from Gramophone, "Vanity" & "Tokyo Lounge". Then got 2 shirt from G2 Blu, finally hitting e shelves at orchard library, had to replace e ones I finished reading. Met up with qinyi, sharon, siqi & jieqi for coffee, which became dinner at Cineleisure's Hong Kong Cafe. As usual, I ordered curry chicken plus some dim sum. e curry nice right? Lol.. Wad lao, I was forced to go Kbox, there will be no next time liao!

Sunday
Work work.. Special appearance by ken; I never worked with him for a long time liao, not bad, at least he's back to his old self, always crapping. Lan session with JJ, micheal & siqi at night with e inclusion of my cousin, which was oddly in place, lol. Hmm, which phone is nicer, 8800 black sirocco 0r 8600 luna?

as

Hopefully, I can get e 8800 sirocco as my birthday present, hehe..

Monday

Cos of e lan session, I was operating half zombie at Pasir Laba camp. Took an hr nap at one of e lecture room, feels great, as if like I had slept 3hrs. But it wasnt enough, e moment I reached home, I quickly went to bath & dived straight for e bed. Replied a few msg on msn & I was already gone in lala land.. ZZzzzz...

will be?

Its been a long time since I feel so at ease.
Yeah!
Sweet dreams tonight..

17Km!!

My whole body is aching now, especially my legs; had a 17km run yesterday morning. The route was hell la, undulating terrain, damn lots of #$% slopes. Worse still, there wasnt any drinking point at all! After e 12km mark, I was already going to die from dehydration. So out of desperation, I licked water from e leaves which was formed from morning dews, haha.. AHM is only 10 days from now & my brigade commander even asked me to take part in e Standard Charter marathon, a gruelling 42km run, Zzzzz. Still thinking on whether to take part in it.

Tuesday morning, went with e S3 branch guys to Sim Lim Square to get a CD drive. Lol, I just tagged along cos I wanted to buy DVD-R, need to burn my porn films for safe storage. Of course not la! Actually need it to burn my PSP games, as my HDD already has not enough space to store them. Then we went Suntec for lunch, it was at Carl's Junior. My first time eating in that fast food restaurant, e chilli fries damn nice la & e Teriyaki burger ---> Awesome! It was so filling that I didnt manage to finish e fries. Same night, I was in e bunk reading 'Crayon Shin chan', then out of nowhere, I heard someone calling me.. "Dear dear"; I thought. Lol, my mind was playing tricks on me! But that was e 1st time it ever happened.

Hmm, I dont really know how to approach you on that matter, scared that it might make you cry. On e other hand, I was quite worried that you might do something stupid; dont hit your hand against e floor ar! Well, even e picture that I took & sent it to you, made you think back of e past, sorry about it. Hope you are coping well now..

Misunderstood

I find it very hard to relate my thoughts to others; & to even let them understand.

Am I difficult to understand?
Or is it that I have trouble explaining myself?
Worse, I make myself difficult to be understand?
Maybe I didnt try hard enough..

After e conversation, I realised that it wasnt all e reasons above.

I missed e times when I have reflections with you right after e conversations I had with jj;
I miss you...

Wedding

Yeah, everyone except for siqi went for jin gui's brother wedding. Who's next in line? Hmm, alan? High possibility, afterall he bought kenjia along even after listening to my explanation, haha.. Jin gui? Neh, he said 5 years later, lol, we shall see huh. Well, e rest which is yong chang , siqi, beng & me, seems unlikely. Yong chang - e special one, maybe a little cut on e weirdness will help. Beng - another special one, but not that special. Always lamenting he dont get to meet e nice ones. Yet.... When a nice (maybe not) one comes knocking, he says no feeling; Great.. Me? I also dont know, not in e mood to meet one, but I dont mind giving a try if something nice pops by? Last one ---> Siqi, e most exceptional one, anything can happen from him, who knows he might even get married tomorrow? -.- Dont keep thinking about girls la, concentrate on your work properly leh. Well, congrats to e newly wed couple! Ahem..haha :)

A look at e past. Taken 2001 Swiss Cottage Prom Night.

Jin gui's brother wedding: Yesterday

6 years liao, all of us still looked very much e same. Alan changed e most; on his dressing, I still remember his 'bo chup' ways during secondary school! Oh ya, I got a free bottle of red wine home! Beng damn weak, just 2 glasses of red wine & e whole face turned so red. Joel, you cb... That joker didnt want to watch movie with us, which affected beng, cos he wanted to take joel's car home. Hai.. in e end, no movies. Clubbing was e next alternative, but only left me, alan & kenjia. Ya, that kind of 'Zzzzz' feeling, so I went home instead.

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Why? at this stage, I still dont get it.

Well, it doesnt matter.

Dread

I dont like to attend weddings.. Always make me think of..

Damn sleepy now.. ZzzzzzZzzZZzZzz..

Old liao..

Just woke up, been sleeping e whole afternoon. The past few days has been quite busy, meeting up with several groups of people.

Wednesday

Supposed to go in Zouk at 11am, but it was too crowded, e queue even extended into e hotel carpark! I only managed to meet up with siqi over there; james & marcus were late. Then we went down chinatown to meet up with james & his sister cos his cousin was having dart games at some pub, marcus joined us there too. Initially, Siqi & me thought it was some ah peks' bar, turned out to be quite chic, lol. Finished one martell there, I was drinking most of e time alone, then participated for e last 2 games. 230am, that was e time we managed to went in Zouk, still there was a queue -.- Luckily, we were on e priority queue. 1st time clubbing at such an "early" timing, not bad, still damn crowded. Siqi, marcus & me wandered off to Phuture & it was there we had a bet who will be e last to...ahem.. Cant say out, wahahaha.. Then back to Zouk again at 4am, james had already slipped off, having guard duty 2hrs later, lol.. Hehe, I got 2 more absolute Vodkas as my birthday present!

Thursday

Hangover; headaches..

Meet up with shiyan 3pm, then went off to Pearl center to get e E61 for my sergeant. Next 2 hrs, was at coffee club in orchard, chilling out :) Damn rush la, dinner with e secondary bunch was fixed at 530pm, but I had a deal at 6pm at somerset mrt. What to do? I was extremely late, sorry guys..& even got lost in Novena, dont really go to that area much. Cheated!!! I was cheated into having dinner at Vienna, e bill amount to a whopping $218. Sad, if I knew I was treating, I would have brought you to nicer restaurants for dinner. Hehe, but alright la, e food at Vienna is quite nice, I like e cheese scallop, slurps~ My birthday present from them; 2 tumblers from Starbucks. So I was told, it was e cheapest on my wanted list, idiots... Caught Rush hour 3 at The Cathay & I managed to meet e Simpsons there, we were exchanging pointers on how to gesture in e best way. This is what I adopted.

While I had mine, Beng had his pointers from Bart; to get a better score in his oral examination.

Show ended at 1145, night was still young, I had to rush down to Peninsular Plaza by 1115pm; Lan-gaming with JJ, micheal & siqi & they were already there at 1015pm. Very near, so I decided to walk over, kinda nostalgic, walking e very same path that I used to take with her, somemore it was my birthday. Saw Chimjes at a distance, went in for a short walk, was taking my time to enjoy e quiet surroundings; arr, solitude again..

Anyway, thanks for all e effort being made, really appreciate e dinners, e meetups & e presents! I'm 22 liao!!!!

Blank...

Dread.
Going 22 soon.
Everyone been asking how am I going to celebrate.
None.
Truth is, I dont see e point of having any celebration. I dont feel sore about it, just that last year celebration was e best one I ever had(might turn out to be one of e best?)

On a happier note...
Durian treat this afternoon! Its one of my brigade cohesion events, aim to bring e specialists & e officers closer, but I think getting closer to e durians are everyone priority. Anyway, went for e last lesson on e camp security yesterday. At e start, e presentation was quite boring, just reading from e slides, until e scenarios came out; on how are we supposed to deal with them. Then, one of my friend was singled out from e floor for e 5th scenario. He was to act out as a duty personnel prowling around e camp with his buddy. Suddenly he saw at 100m away, a suspect (acted by e speaker) with a parang was charging towards him. Immediately, he carried out e usual engagement procedure & using force is e last resort according to e doctrine. So, he shot at e suspect, which e speaker said "miss". Took a 2nd shot, "miss" again. At this instance, my friend replied "Sir, cannot be la" "Why?" "I marksman leh!" Haha, e whole floor burst out laughing. Hehe, most of e time I was sleeping, which proves that I really cant attend lectures without sleeping.

Bad morning, good night...

Wasted morning yesterday. Me, xiaoyi & pradeep had to go back camp for some last minute course on camp security. In fact, all 3rd sergeant & above had to attend, 'pontenging' did cross our mind, afterall who want to go back to camp on a saturday morning? Glad we did went, cos my warrant was e duty officer from e previous day, phew... Actually most of e things are common sense la, only e handcuff topic was fun. We were taught on how to handcuff & arrest people, lots of fallings were seen. I realised those actions seen on show, especially e part when e handcuff is being cuffed on e hands is totally crap! By slamming down e cuff on one's wrist will definitely injured him or may even break his bones. Hehe, I stashed 2 packs of korean maggie mee(dont know whose one) into my slingbag before I left camp. Lunch was at woodlands again, finally I got to sit by e window panes; used to go there have lunch during secondary & poly days. Am in a reading frenzy now, went over to library to get more books after finishing Neil Gaiman's Fragile things.

Slack e rest of e whole afternoon at home, checking mails & posting new ads. Went down to orchard in e evening, got my new pierre cardin wallet; e old one coin compartment was tore. Walked past e exhibition area, a CK long sleeve shirt caught my eye, that went into my shopping bag as well. Then meet up with terrence, while waiting for siqi, we went to starbucks, e one beside crown prince(full house). Then to my old haunt opposite cineleisure, but it wasnt starbucks anymore, fuck, I forgot they already shifted out last month. In e end, we went to top of e M restaurant at Meritus Mandarin, had a grasshopper, nice mint taste while terrence had a zombie, damn hugh. Well, I kinda like e night view there & I was thinking I should/could have brought 'who' here, lol.

Took some photos, but e resolution isnt that good. Siqi finally arrived, he wanted to go karaoke pub. Of course, I objected to it, citing too noisy, haha! So I suggested going down to Dempsey rd, since none of us went there before.

The place quite lively at night, I didnt know there are so many drinking establishments there. Lol, we were kinda lost, e area is quite big lo.. So I called several who might have any idea on where to go. In e end, I took peiwen's suggestion, went to Hacienda. Actually we didnt really find it, we were walking around, then Terrence shouted "EH, Hacienda!" Okie, we went in, 1st sight, lots of ang moh, I was thinking, nice hangout meh? Further into e pub was better, not so congested & we settled down at e smoking session(Hate it) cos those 2 jokers wanted to smoke. Seems like e non-smoking section have better 'views', we realised it too late, I should have insisted to stay in that section, arrr... The red wine there is cheap, had it for $55 nett. Whole night we were talking about business stuff & some r/s stuff; standard la.. Reached home at 230am, had a good bath & settled down in my room. I took a good look around; it has been very quiet for 9mths, hai..

Maria ave maria...

Suey..

Think I just leave e previous post as it is.

Suey. I kena caught on thursday morning for wearing bermudas & tshirt to camp. Prior to that, I was at a late night lan-gaming session with my colleagues & reached outside mindef at 630am. It was then I realised... Pradeep didnt drive! Wtf, if its e daily routine, I would have taken his car all e way into camp. Great, we had to walk past e gate which will BYPASS e sentries which shouldnt be a problem, I thought. Really down on my luck, a warrant officer was standing there(which was 1 out of a million chance at tat hour), I was reprimanded on e spot together with my particulars taken down, fuck. Arrghhh, I wouldnt have wear that attire if not for e 16km run today, cos I will change into it after e 16km run. This morning they told me that e run is cancelled, really omg lo. Great, 3 extra coming up... I love SAF.

Thoughts..

Zzzz, I think my body clock abit siao liao. Dont know for what reason, I couldnt sleep on monday morning. Was damn energetic lo, playing dota, followed by Field commander on my PSP, ended up sleeping for 1hr. In camp, I was 'drifting' in & out of e sleeping realm. I just couldnt fall asleep, but when I did, I will wake up a few minutes later. Stupid lo, at least last night was better, I managed to tire myself out by playing dota non-stop after reaching home; hitted e pillows at 1am. On e way to camp, received a message from HQ stating that I had to do some marshall duties, wtf, sergeant liao still must do this kind of shit. But I managed to slip away, hehe... Great lo, e seamstress in my camp 'ORD' liao, where am I going to sew my ranks now? Beach road is a nono, way too far, unless someone is going to drive me there & wait for me, lol...

I was thinking back of a conversation which I had with one of my superiors last week. We were talking about how each of us look at things differently from different angles & how a 2nd/more opinion gives you more insight on issues. Hmm, I tend to be stubborn most of e time, doing things e way that I like them to be done. However, being in army, I have learnt to really listen to others' opinion & look at things at various angles. All this led me to rethink about my future; not on my priorities but mainly on my career. For e past 6 years, I have been with e same company. Am I happy to work there? Yes & No.
Why Yes?

1. I'm dealing with things that I like; laptops, mobile phones & pda.
2. I have e freedom to work anytime I like(However, I'm e only one in e company who enjoy this unwritten privilege)
3. Beside a fix pay, I'm allowed to engage in private dealings.
4. I have nice colleagues
5. Its an open enviroment, not confined to an office or cubicle?
6. The job allows me to have access to various types of gadget which I can try it out without buying.
7. My boss is nice to me.

Why No?

1. The company doesnt have a structured organisation, hence no one has a specific role & are expected to multi-task for e same pay?
2. The salary is quite low, compared to other industries ( However, e rate is considered high in e same trade)
3. Though most of e colleagues are nice, some are incompetent in work.
4. Management is a mess, administrative issues keep arising. Worse still, some of them are past issues that were not fully resolved.
5. I dont know what is e vision of e company, it keeps changing. Moreover, I cant get in tune with e boss concept of doing things.
6. I'm getting tired of facing those fuck issues, it will be good to be working in a brand new enviroment.
7. I need something more challenging, as in within e work scope & e job nature.

Zzzz, I'm getting sleepy, cant carry on.. Update 2molo..