Choices, how can you ensure that you are sure about the ones u make?

Hungry, eating nian gao! Sian, spent e last 2 days being bored out in camp. Hai, couldnt go for swims lo, keep raining in e afternoon. After going for a run on thursday night, I was sitting with e new ooc outside coy line. He was telling about e choices that we make in life; that he's a firm believer that everything has been preset, e choices that we make are already planned beforehand. Well, I dont, I think that we always have a choice to make choices, e innate ability to influence our own life through e choices you make. Ya, sometimes it can be quite a headache, cos you have to think of e consequences & e responsibilities that comes with it. So, at that moment, I pondered, e picture of Joyce in my mind, I realised that I chose to cling on to e past because of e wonderful moments I had with her & e desire to be loved by her. Next, a picture of an idiot in my mind, though it seems impossible now, I choose to stay on :) When I heard e cries on e phone, my heart immediately sank. Then, I realised I have..

Met up with James, Marcus, Xiu, Yinying for dinner at Bugis yesterday night, we went to Fish & Co! Haha, Me & James shared a seafood platter for 2, it was e 1st time I cant finish e food at e restaurant, though I was damn hungry; last meal I ate was lunch at 11am.

Damn, I looked like a nerd beside xiu; chiobu!! Wahaha.. Halfway thru e meal, Joel & Huien jio me go DXO. Hehe, so after our dinner, we walked all e way to Esplanade. Initially, James was reluctant to go, but I managed to pull him in after much persuasion. Okie, bad mistake; it was too early then, those 2 guys didnt have e mood to drink, went off with Xiu quite early at 12am. Hence, left me with Joel. Then, e both of us went to join Huien & her friends, quite a big group, cos yesterday was their last day of poly life, even their lecturers came, Zzzzz. It was my 1st time there, overall experience? Bad, I ranked it 2nd from behind, e worst is St. James! Cos e air-con damn lousy, all of us was sweating most of e time. Drinks served were too diluted -.- . Music was e worst, or maybe is e DJ lousy, e tracks can be sudden very fast, then very slow. Its like Rnb, retro & trance jumbled up. But not bad la, someone treated me flaming lamborghini! Haha, it was quite sudden, cos I dont know him; Joel's army mate. Lol, its not a girl la :( Spent most of e time sitting down, I was actually quite tire, keep sending sms, asking this & that; I was quite concerned. I wanted to go off at 2am but went off at 4am instead, go home also sian. Slept until 12pm, online for awhile, then slept again till 3pm, lol.. Fun tonight, anyone?

Joel & Huien; you 2 die liao...

Was quite moody in e morning, maybe it was due to e conversation I had with you. In fact, I was trying to laugh it off. Nevermind, nothing much happen today, except that I didnt get to go musical fountain; no one was really free to go & e one that suppose to go, cant go, lol.
Hehe, suppose to write this entry at 130am, but I fell asleep. Damn, I feel super sian ji bua, yesterday night I should be in Zouk, but Joel & Huien said they will be leaving at 2am, somemore they informed me at 12am. So, I didnt go, woke up at 615am, saw their msg. "Opps, we just left phuture.." Time--> 415am, tamade!!!! I want to kill you two liao!! Haa..
Alright la, at least something good happen; only you know ba, consolation price, lol... I miss you!!

Sleepy..

Absolute 100 ---> I want that!!

Sleepy, dont know why, this few days I can fall asleep very easily. Just by closing eyes, 1min I will be in dreamland. Ya, previous entry was written in a 3/4 sleeping mode, was very tired that night. Finally, I moved into my new bunk, just next to my coy. Bigger room, compared to e previous one, some more toilet beside & its on e 2nd floor! Bad thing is that in order to access e other levels, I have to step thru concertina wire barricaded between e 2 coy corridors, if not, I have to walk one big round.

Yesterday was quite a busy day, encik went for 3 week course, so left me & Xiaoyi to fend for ourselves. Great, 1st thing in e morning, I kena one cos duty while Xiaoyi doing his on thursday, reason being; one of e instructors have to take off, so we have to take over his duties. Lunch & dinner time in e canteen was chaotic, most of e trainees quite blur la, I have to repeat my instructions over & over again,; 'a' level students somemore. No offence, but typical JC batch are always like that, they lack e initiative to do things, always think inside e box. Later sure bound to have some people defending about e last statement, JC kids, arrr... One good news is that I got a new ooc, 1st day ooc liao, pro lo~ No la, he broke his collarbone before coming in army & e MO overlooked, thats why send him to SISPEC. Only then they realised e mistake after he posted to my coy.

Well, for today, Pradeep came over, joined us for lunch. That indian fucker; this is his nick, he promise to treat my lunch that time, but took back his word, really fucker. But nevermind, he then said he treat drinks, alright lo, I took e marigold oat milk, grins ~He thought it was $1 ++, actually it cost $2.10 lo, I saw his face like kena spotlight when he made e payment, he thought e uncle wanted to 'chop' him. 1pm plus, went for a swim at e officer mess, quite relaxing, got jazz music playing in e compound. After e swim, spent e whole afternoon sleeping again, Zzzzz. Night time was another session at chevron, this time round, only me & Xiaoyi went, thus tried e Xbox 360, played "Gears of war" for like 2 hrs. Nb, he drank most of e liquer, since when he liked to drink so much, must be my influence, muahaha... Tommorow will be a bad day, I presumed. Why? I wanted to go musical fountain but someone cant make it :( Not e right time yet, or maybe dun even have a chance at all, lol? Seriously, that fateful night really light up my life in some ways, but I cant do anything about it now? Anyway, I dont care, I want e guilty pic(pig) face of yours!!!

Wana sleep..

Alright, she came over at 1pm to collect back her things. There wasnt much to say between us, maybe I still have my doubts & questions, but they dont matter anymore now. Case closed.

I didnt get to sleep much, less than 4hrs of sleep. After Joyce went off, I was staring at e empty spaces once more. So, who's going to fill e empty spaces? Lol... Afternoon, went down Tampines to pass e Kitaro CD, ZZzzz, make me wait for half an hour, went around looking for ATB & e FF7 album. Then I remembered, my brother was working at outram park! There is a shop there selling alot of music album & prices are cheap too! Finally, got e

ATB The DJ'3 In The Mix, but cant get advent children album leh, so I asked him to get Corrinne May's Fly Away instead, sweet.. Evening time, spent most of e time at Citylink's HMV & MPH, spent like 1hr @ e latter reading ghost stores, haha.. Cos it was still quite early, waiting for Shiyan to call back. Then I went to have a walk at Marina Sq, saw Jinjin, Shihshih & her boyfriend; just hi & bye nia. Feeling a sense of emptiness, I headed to nicoll highway bridge, heng, still can be accessed! Took a picture of e ferris wheel & e whole marina promenade!

Notice how it got darker? Haha, at least someone appreciates them :p Got a call from Shiyan as I was proceeding down e bridge. Yeah, met him at Long bar, he brought a female friend along call Peiwen. Lol, they knew each through blogs, something new ya? I was too tire then, slept during e live band performance. Gullible girl, I can say, not bad ah, at least she knows who is Armin Van Buuren. Yup, drank e 2nd Spore Sling in my life!

Budding artist? Mine looks better :p

Haha, you made me smile again.
So we were discussing on clubbing songs when Shiyan was driving us back home, I still think mambo songs are e best! Definitely! Hmm, guess that you havent sleep yet too, tell me whether e Kitaro's album nice anot? Night!!!

时间，有时真的无可奈何的，成为彼此之间最大的距离...

Friday night, literally zhou bo @ home. Was msning, downloading songs & playing dota all e way, hehe, I received one more gdnite greeting!

Its a wonder that a simple handwritten greeting like this can just make one smile easily :) Repeat e same "zhou bo" routine again in e morning, until 10pm, joined Micheal & JJ for another dota session. As I was walking out of outram park mrt, I saw a lady, quite familiar, but I just passed it off, was immersed in my new songs playing from e ipod. When I reached e lan shop, Micheal went off to get something. Next moment, e lady was standing beside him. Lol, 原来她是 Micheal's girlfriend, no wonder I find her familiar la, she used to have short hair, now long hair, dyed golden color. She still as weird as ever, only talks to Micheal nia, cant be bothered. Well, did talk about having dinner with e sec. clique but those idiots left without making a decision in msn, Zzzzz. Yeah, had breakfast with JJ after e session, he was talking about how drastic Ken have change. Hai, dont know what to do & what to say about him. From what I can conclude, he really thinks that girls are materialistic; they only go for guys in appearance, education & finance wise. Poor boy, e reject really dented his ego to e lowest. Lol, JJ said that he lacked discipline, hence he took it too hard, only eat one meal a day, most probably just plain beehoon soup with fishball. Rest of e day? Sustain on fruits!!-.- Go for running every morning ( He even said "I rather go for runs than to go to work")Too extreme le. I called him just now, initially he didnt pick up, but called back 10mins later, but he dont want to talk, jialat lo...

Packing up my room now, Joyce coming later to pick up her stuffs, guess that really end e chapter liao. Hehe, damn bo liao now, took some pictures on Sony DSC-M1. Haha, I added some wordings to it, enjoy! Ya, must click to enlarge in order to see e words..

Disclaimer: For pure entertainment only, anyone can comment except Beng; please keep your stupid comments to yourself. Lol..

Yeah, finally wrapped finish e cd le! Its 830am now, haha, still got an idiot online. I wrote prayers answered 1min ago, damn it, have to retract liao...

Everytime must have a title meh? Make it an exception this time round..

Lethargic, especially in e morning, for e past few days. Wednesday night was at MOS, prior to that, went over to Barfly, cos there iss an ongoing promotion; for every 4 girls admitted, they get 1 bottle of vladmir vodka free. Obviously, e guys dont get it, not even get to share it, Zzzz.So, I ordered long island whereas Joel ordered long beach, gay huh? He always like to do that. Huien brought 3 of her girlfriends along & they drank e vodka on e rock, to save $$? That was e reason why they wanted to go; I presumed, hehe. But e mixers cost around $18-$21, so still quite worth it for groups of girls who wana drink 1st before hitting e clubs. Anyway, e service at barfly is damn slow, I was told beforehand that in order to get e bill, one have to wait for around 30mins? Alright, I was luckier, I waited 20mins :( Then, went over to MOS, 1st time clubbing with Joel only, cos Huien was quite tired, schooling e next day(I also need to report camp at 7am next day leh)We were at e main arena most of e time, cos I wanted to listen retro. Around 2am, I wanted to go Smoove, but he insisted on staying at main arena; that cheeky bastard saw an eye candy. In e end, I was his "dance partner" throughout e night, cos he didnt make any move :( Went off at 3plus, headed to macdonalds for a short chat, he thinking of going Australia to study, as his brother is working over there, lodging shouldnt be a problem for him. Maybe I should join too? Wait till I get e application results from NUS 1st..
Sleep!!! 1st thing I did when I reach camp after e endless dancing. Slept till 11am, had to wake up, cos my bunk is going to be used for e next batch of trainees; dragon babies, very big intake, all bunks have to be utilised. So, went for lunch with Xiaoyi, halfway received a call from my 2ic; my worst fear was confirmed, I have to do e training programme plus e indents alone, great! Pia through e night, managed to finish 80% of it. Then it dawned on me that, me & Xiaoyi dont have a place to sleep, cos encik havent allocate a new bunk for us!! Swee lo, sleep in company office, my "bed" was two chairs, seats facing each other. Xiaoyi got a better bargain, a safari foldout bed. But I was knocked out in 2mins? Too tire ba, even though it was quite uncomfortable on e 'bed'. After 2 hrs,I realised I forgot to reply a msg; as if my subconscious reminding me, haha.. I replied & knocked off again..
Woke up today with back cramps, numb left hand & super saiyan hair, thanks to e chairs. I wanted to sleep somemore lo, but was awaken by a sms; " eh bro, today breakfast got prata, wana come anot?" Maitang la, chiong for e prata & was back on e chairs for 2 more hrs of sleep. Finally, finished e paperwork at around 3pm after e much needed sleep, had lunch from e new malay stall in canteen, e food not bad! I heard Xiaoyi whistling one of my trance song!( I was playing them on my ipod while doing e paperwork) & it seems like he got a hang on it. Book out at 5pm, reading "la pi xiao xin" on e way home, need humour in my life, even though that I'm e provider most of e time to others 0.O?

Deo Gratias...

Stupid for reading this...due to boredom..

I know, its 630am in e morning. I should be sleeping or whatsoever, but no, I will be leaving e house in 10mins time, Xiaoyi's father driving us to camp. Hmm, just felt e urge to write down my feelings ba. Have you ever wonder why everything happens for a reason? As in you already know there is a reason behind e happenings, but for e reason itself, how do you know which is e right one? And if you do, how can you ensure that you are sure about it? Ah... Stumped? To tell you e truth, I now damn bo liao la, I havent sleep for e whole night, just trying to keep myself awake, lol. If you, e reader feel damn stupid now, dont worry, you have proven yourself being one by reading my blog, haha... Though it was a simple conversation, you never fail to make me smile, lol, another everything happens for a reason? Dont put yourself in seclusion liao, trying is not enough, you must do it! Lol, if only I can draw e handwritten "nites idiot!", hehe.. Book in lo!

Spaghetti with mackeral!!!!

Cooking spaghetti now! Been craving it for it since I book out just now. Hmm, been sleeping alot in camp this 2 days, nothing much to do, e computers are down too, due to some unknown idiot who went to disable e lan. So, what happened on Sat?
Quite a bad night la, Joel was too tired to club, so clubbing was cancelled. Ikea was also forgo cos my brother wanted to go out with his friends. I was put on standby mode, but not bad la, at least still got to play dota with JJ & Micheal, seems that e participating strength is getting lower huh? Nowadays, Ken & Siqi also not around liao. Got e worse news of e night while playing, I have to go back on Sunday to do COS duty, wtf... Cos one of e sergeant cant back on time to do it, so I have to do it instead! Nbcb.. Lol, I saw someone coming out of seclusion while playing dota, glad to see you :) Hai, actually I dont to tell you whether its good or bad la. To tell you that its good, I seem to be lying; on e other hand, to tell you that its bad, it will just make you more sad, well, I cant do much for comforting :(
Hence, sunday was just burnt away like that, whole day in camp sleeping, ZZzzzzz (Ya, weekend duty is damn slack) At night, was damn bored, standing outside corridor looking at e sky, then I saw lightning streaking across e sky, but there werent any thunder nor rain. Just e flashes of bolt, lighting up e sky, it was quite nice, but too bad, my camera phone too lousy to take pictures of it.

Monday, went to play pool with Xiaoyi at JEC, Asri joined us like half an hr later. Was kinda bored after afew games, e image of her in that playing pool posture pops up in my mind once again, you may ask, why of all places, in a pool parlour? Lol, hard to get rid of this old ghost in me. Hence we went over to Chevron to have a drink. Basket, Asri was telling us how slack his new vocation & how things work in e "slack" way in his new unit, ZZzzz.. I also want to post out lo!!! Hehe, Xiaoyi never really drank liquer before, thus I ordered 4 glasses; malibu, tia maria, baileys, kahlua, all on e rocks. Lol, as you can see, all are sweet, cos I wanted to dupe him into believing liquers are sweet. Haha, it did work, he drank until very happily, keep asking me what they are. Followed by 3 mugs of tiger beer each, cheap ma, so ordered it; total bill was like $30 nia.. Rofl, yesterday was e 1st time I see Xiaoyi so "on", he was abit high by e end of e 3rd mug & he was slurring in his speech!! It was a great night, at least I wasnt thinking of anything, went back to camp in time :) 5mins before 12am.
Hmm, I did try something before I sleep, but seems that it's quite hard to work out. Distance; its always stop people from getting closer...

Green apple vodka! I want to get it!!!

Snap these pics while waiting; nice place to walk at night :)

So, I went for an "adult" event with Joel & Huien yesterday; I was questioned whether I'm at least 18years old, to think that Huien is 2 years younger than me, ZzZzzz. Reason was that free flow alcohol was being served ma, idiots. It was e launch of Smirnoff 's Green Apple, a new green apple flavored vodka. As door gifts, I received a miniature(wait, is this pronounced as "mini-ture" or "minia-ture"?) bottle of it with DKNY "Be delicious" perfume sample. Yeah, I gonna get this 2 items soon, e perfume smell very nice! Hehe, green apple f(vodka with ginger eil) & green apple martini(vodka with martini) were served! Needless to say, I chiong for e fizz 1st, then followed by e martini. Really lo, it was an adult event, most of e people there were in e late 20s or early 30s, saw a few celebrities & a few sweet hot things, lol. There was one lady wearing a nice number, standing right in front of us at e next table, her hemline super high, sexy~ !Haha, set me & Joel's hormones raging. Hmm, I think I drank at least 8 glasses of martini, partly due to losses on hand games. Well, it was kinda rush for me too, spent like 45mins there? Ya, e whole place around robertson quay kinda revamped, got alot of nice restaurants & chillout bars, guess that I will be going down with Marcus & James when e latter come back from sailing. Anyway, I was late for company meeting at queensway, so took a cab down. As usual, always e "dilly dally stuffs" for like half an hour before e meeting started. Haha, I was actually quite "seh" when I reached e shop, kept having spliting headaches. Hai, e meeting ended on a sour note, seems like e supplier wanted to "hiong" us. Hence, e deal is most likely called off, sigh..Now, we have to deal with our buyers #$%#!

JJ was quite stress, in e end, only me & my brother stayed back to accompany him, played dota until 6am in e morning. I was too tired then, keep on dozing off during e last 2 games. Going Ikea later, need to buy a table for my brother. MOS tonight!

Moving on; again..

Back. Tired.
Went to MOS just now with Joel & Huien, not much of a crowd today, because thursday? So, I was told only main arena opens on thursday, unless got function, ZZzzz. Quite disappointed, didnt get to listen any trance &/or house music. Before that, we went over to Tcc for coffee, just to wait for e "clubbing crowd to settle in first" , lol.
Alright, e absence of entries was due to what happened on monday, no mood to write anything then. Yeap, I'm okay now, should be la. Haha, someone seems to be in trouble now, hope you get your answers too. Nothing much happened this past few days, e only significant news was that JJ is going to Hongkong with my bro, Zhiyi & Ken to clinch a big deal; biggest one in e company so far. If things turn out smoothly, confirm huat liao. Otherwise, he might have to file bankruptcy, thats what he told me. Hence, I might have to help to oversee e shops while he's away. Anyway, finally got e tickets for e concert, will be on e 16th June, those who havent buy yet, faster get it, as most of e seats have been snapped up. Sian, got to return back to camp later to settle some paperwork, lol, I didnt pick up my encik call in e morning. Then, he sent an sms over, have to report by 730am today, clever ass, I should be still on "off" one... Ya, Asri just get posted out, now only left me & Xiaoyi liao, siao la, when is it our turn to get posted out? Tonight, still have to attend company meeting, dont know whether can get to book out, argh....

Nothing but e truth; pain lo...

Lol, if I can really give up, I wouldnt even have asked. Choices, I did make. Chances, I did take. Yet, in e end, its just misinterpretation on my part? Mockery, e past few days conversations just dont prove to me otherwise, so you told me I got e wrong ideas. Which means I have been leading myself on? Hai, which idiot will keep mum if you ask her whether you are her ideal husband? The many questions that I asked, cant you just say "NO" instead in e first place? Yet, my repeated asking gets silence in return. I said that I wanted to give it a try again, you could have stopped me then, why wait until now then tell me? Arr... I'm not blaming you, it was my pure stupidity that thought that you still have reservation on this r/s.
Lol, Qinqing ar.. I finally can understand e dilemma you are in, e saying part for me is easy, yet e doing part for you is hard. All this while I know you have been reading my blog. From e entries, I had implied I would rather have "no" as an answer than no answer at all. Hmm, I just feel that you arent telling e whole truth at all? Haha.. Maybe all this while I'm just thinking too much.
Conclusion: If you still have feelings for me, you would have leave your bf & come back. Yup, I got e answer le..

Confuse...

No, I didnt just wake up.

Evening time, I went for e IT show, damn lots of people. Actually, I went there just to collect information on laptops, just to update myself on e new models & their pricing. Not bad, I got a charger with 2 rechargable battery for $12.90, just happened that I saw them on offer at one booth :) Hehe, think I gona change laptop again, X60, sponsers anyone? Fujitsu ones also will do, haha... Nothing much to do after e IT show & no one was free, hence went to coffee bean. Sat down for like 2 hrs, reading my comics; got it before I went over suntec. Luckily, JJ sms me, asking me to watch "300". So, met him & e rest at Pearl centre, managed to "psycho" Siqi to watch, because he kept saying he not free. But dont know for what reason, while I was on e phone, he left; just 10mins after I arrived, ZZzzzz. Sms him also damn bek cek, due to e replies that he gave; nowadays, I talked frequently to "walls". In e end, only left me, Ken, JJ & Zhiyi & we went to Chatterbox for chicken rice, then idle at starbucks until 2am to catch e movie. Hai, I actually wanted to take e outing as an opportunity to talk some sense out of him. Fuck la, how can I just let you be? Seriously, we dont know what you are thinking; it doesnt make sense at all. Ya, true, I dont like Stella, but last time I still can close one eye because you are my friend? But after e incidents, I really cant take it, you DESERVE someone much much more better!
While thinking about his problem, I was thinking of e things between me & Joyce. Really, e flashbacks, e familiarity of e surroundings, keep on re-enacting in front of me, almost all e time, regardless of where I am. Ya, I do miss the laughters, smiles & fun. And if I were to type them out, it will be endless. I dont want to regret neither do I want to give up & I'm more than willing to work things out. However, I also dont want to put you in a difficult situation, but I dont know what is e right way to do; as in to make things easier for you? Anyway, I already make e decision to make one last shot. Lol, cant seem to sleep, but also good la, have to reach camp by 8am, got to serve my 2nd extra duty.

I thought of Maldives again...

Still e same..

Very tire, woke up by e constant "beeping" of msn windows; didnt switch off laptop ma, bad move. Reached home at 7 in e morning, as usual, dota session with JJ & Micheal. Jun Rong was one of e those who msn me !@#$%. Hmm, quite unusual, cos he started e 1st word "charlie..."; must be something bad lo. Haha, turned out to be, he's going to be a father soon!!!! & I thought he was joking, ROFL. Actually I'm quite happy for him, but he was quite stress, especially about money matters. Yeah, going to attend his wedding dinner in 2months time, maybe I should apply as his child's godfather, too "enthu" liao, muahaha. Hehe, I was supposed to propose this year too! :(
Hmm... Miss you alot..

Dinner went on smoothly yesterday, though Chang pull out at e last min & Siqi was in camp. We had it in some ulu corner of clementi, opposite NUS campus ba, however it was quite full when we reached there. Hehe, got bamboo clam seh! Eat until stomach nearly burst :( then sat there for like a hr? Talking about e good old days, I suddenly popped a question, "how things would be like 10 years down e road?" Kinda stumped those idiots, now realised 22years old; really old liao right? Anyway, anyone want to watch "PLAY!" orchestra performance? Its on 15th june, esplanade concert hall, those interested can refer to this webby ---->http://www.play-symphony.com/ Heard that those with student passes or in NS can get 20% discount, but I'm not too sure about it. Hehe, will be going with e secondary school clique, but I will be getting one extra ticket, try my luck ba :) I go take a nap liao, very sleepy, later still gona go IT fair at Suntec...

Threading on a thin line, holding on to my faith; firmly..

Met up with Shiyan in e afternoon, went over Holland village for some catching up session. Haha, stayed for an hr plus at coffee bean, was talking about where we wanted to be after ns, if given 100million, what will we do with it? Lol, then back to e same old topics. Most of e time, throughout e conversation, I was peering through e window panes, searching for you; I saw qinqing! She saw me too, was abit surprise la, came over & chatted with me for awhile. Ahh, she's one of those that I really like to talk with, always giving me useful & e right advices. After she left, Shiyan was saying my life quite happening, so many friends around :) Yeah, I'm thankful to have them around & love them to be around. Yet, I was having images of me in starbucks, seeing you joining me, James, Victor & e rest for coffee, a common past time during poly days. Evening time, was at tlh, packing e shop, clearing e loads of rubbish "created" by Ken. I was really damn pissed off with him; Reason was that I dont understand why cant he take 5-10min of his time each day just to keep e place neat & tidy. Yet, he can skip meals, do routine exercise for his physical outlook; something which he has never care about before. I remembered that you used to be e source of comfort, never failed to calm me down, putting a smile on my face; but e phone didnt seem to answer. Dinner time, had it with my brother, I didnt bother to ask Ken come along. So it started again; e usual dinners we had when I finish work in tlh, beehoon for you most of e time :) Finally, e phone rang, I called back, still it was another moment of silence.
I must admit that women are much superior than men in EQ. Had a talk with Szehui just now & it prove e statement again, 100% record. Lol, cant comment much on her things, everyone got their ways in doing things, it can be right or wrong. Ultimately, it only matters to e person that you want her/him to see. ZZzzzz, I go sleep le..

Fond memories, looking at e pictures...

So, I woke up at 9am today.

Slept quite early e night before, think it was around 1130pm, I was still tearing after putting down my phone & literally fall asleep. Did wake up a few times, 1st thing was to see whether you called back, I wasnt surprised; you didnt call, knew that you must be too tired from work. The day went on as usual, I was quite frustrated over some test papers, couldnt find some of e answers; it was for my officer so that he can let e next batch of instructors have "reference" to it before e test. I was in e mess doing it, chatting with my friends & you, finally I popped e questions. ZZzzz, I knew that it will be that kind of answer. Seriously, do I have e choice to change anything now? When there is a hole leaking, who is going to plug it? Obviously, you have to ask yourself who do you want to plug it. I guess that, for me, e answer is still e same. 1st thing I did after getting back e laptop, was to look through e photos. Haha, its kinda stupid right, to hold on to things that arent there, e faith to keep on wearing e ring. Tell me; what's there to think about, what's it holding you back now? If its e same old thing, I rest my case.

And you do have e choice, it all depends on u. I'm waiting :) always...

Be with you...

One & half years ago, I bought this dvd, "Be with you", I was supposed to watch it with someone in e cinema, but due to unforseen circumstances, we didnt make it, thus e dvd. Lol, we did manage to watch e dvd some time ago, but halfway through it, it turned awry. So, I went to watch it in e mess just now; managed to find it online :) Hai, watched halfway, I realised that I couldnt finish it alone. That's why penning the thoughts now. Went laning again yesterday night, reached camp at 630am. Onwards, slept throughout e day, woke up only for lunch & now; e sudden urge to watch e movie.
Numb, I just feel so numb....

Long nights..

Bad day. Feeling: down, very down. Emotional: Yes.

This sum up today, since morning, waves of news kept pouring in, none of them good ones, each wave getting worse. Anyway, glad for you Joanne, all e best to your r/s. Alright, I finally get back my black beauty; my IBM T43, shall transfer my data over another time. The sense of urgency; seriously, why keep quiet if you do miss someone? Arrr... & you keep feigning ignorant. So, might as well just say "NO" right? Or is it my fault for asking? Yet, when I have e courage to ask, you are too tired by then. Ya, I'm always concern about you, cause I dont want anything to happen to you & because I still love you...

Fuck la, I go play game liao..

Thinking of you..

Sleepy; reached camp at 0830 in e morning, I was late though, luckily Asri was e COS. Yesterday, spent e whole afternoon slacking & chatting on msn, was damn bored. Hehe, chief entertainer came at about 3pm, managed to save me from boredom, had a great chat, at least you did smile :) Late evening, attended a wedding dinner of a distant relative with my mum & sis at Goodwood Park Hotel, it was kinda last min, only knew it yesterday, wasnt compulsory for me to go, but I went anyway cos of e hotel. Yup, e atmosphere is still e same, serene, quiet, especially e poolside area. Nostalgic; I celebrated my 19th birthday there, bet that most of you guys dont know right. It was one of my best birthday, bring back alot of fond memories. Loittered around e area for like 15mins, to my disappointment, my mum got e wrong venue -_-" always "bai wu long" lo. Heng ar, it was less than 5mins walk away, at York hotel instead, just behind Goodwood Park. Finally, reached e ballroom, around 20+ tables ba, saw e wedding tab; the groom is a indo chinese. Hmm, I still remembered fondly that time I attended ah Zhai wedding in Medan, it was so different from a SG chinese wedding, rofl, it involves you again, ZZZzz. Usual stuffs, screening of e wedding solemenisation, exchange of vows, so on & so forth. I was rather bored then & to add misery to it; alot my relatives ask me when it's my turn, enough liao la, dont keep asking me this damn question when I dont even have one. Red wine was served, maitang ar, chiong around 5 glasses of it, hehe.. Mother was e most cute one la, keep asking about her cousins' daughters, 1st question "Got bf anot?" haha, I managed to stay out of sight most e of time, happily tucking in e food. The yam paste was delicious, too bad, none of us know how to make, sad.. By e time e wedding end, some moron just woke up & I was making my way down to chinatown for a night session of DOTA! Surprise appearance of micheal, hmm, thought he become family man liao, its been like 1 yr plus since he last joined us for lan gaming. Needless to say, I played until 5am plus, wanted to go home straight & pack my things. Idiot JJ kept saying hungry & Siqi managed to slip off, no choice lo, accompany him eat his "breakfast" with my brother & Micheal. Hai, heard from JJ & my brother that Siqi is still with Stella, OMFG, wtf are you doing!! I thought we already talked about it that time, arr... Wake up man! Kao, damn sad to see you dropping into e bottomless pit again. Screwed up cabs, I couldnt get one at all from 6am onwards, actually 2 came by, but they were going CCK & were willing to go to only 1 location; we had 3 different location, so no go. Stupid me, I was quite tired that time, damn blur too, by e time I realised I could have taken e cabs with my brother instead, they were gone. Tried to book cab, line busy, when got through, no cab, ninnabei! We only boarded one at 650am, 50mins for one cab, great huh. Hence, explained e lateness when I reported back camp this morning.
Haha, sunday duty really zhou bo, not a single soul around & I slept throughout e afternoon, song!
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Came back at ard 3am, went Swensens for dinner, e fried mushroom was nice, 1st time eating it. Nb, Pradeep & Nichlolas, you 2 bastards tua us, next time shall be e two of you treating! After dinner, played pool at cineleisure, haha, won most of e games, maybe they too lousy, lol. Halfway through, I realised that something was missing, I guessed correctly, no wonder e replies were without e usual laughter. Hai, wasnt concentrating for rest of e games, an uneasy feeling keep bugging me. After that, went to esplanade with Xiaoyi, lol, 2 guys walking side by side in e night to esplanade; talking about our own life, kinda gayish, hahaaha. Anyway, it was a great outing though I wasnt "there" most of e times.
Hmm, I feel rather bad, really sorry about it, cant do much to ease your pain. Hai, how I wish I can share your woes & do something about it... :(

Warmth..I like this feeling..

Woa..Its kinda rush this 2 days, quite a few bad things happened. Hmm...
Yesterday morning, started with e marshalling duty, woke up at 355am; I was late! Lol, cos slept at around 140am, send some stupid thing too, only realised it in e afternoon. Reached coy line at around 8am, by then, my whole hand & face already biten like siao by e mosquitos, my hands now look like I'm having measles, ZzzZzz. Afternoon kena arrows again, have to do a powerpoint presentation followed by another evening marshalling duty, sian, I could have avoided it if not for my integrity; LOL.. Hai, then received a bad news when I was in back in mess; one of my brother's grandmother passed away. I was quite worried about him, so applied half day off & luckily it was granted. Rushed all e way down to attend e wake, chatted with him, reminscing our good old days. Hmm, guess that I was abit emotional at some parts too, some old memories came back into mind, was fighting hard to control my tears. Well, at least his grandma passed away peacefully, that was e only assurance I can give him. Yesterday night was also e 1st time I drank so much cans of beer, think around 8 cans of heineken, haha, cant believe it, cos I dont like beer* :p Surprisingly, I wanted to see her, kinda felt comforting when she replied. Dont need to guess , I went home seh seh, hehe, still managed to check my mails then went to sleep...
Siao, late for the OOC meeting liao, shall update later!