Friday, November 30, 2007

Time.

Loss of appetite. Cant seem to contain e breakfast which consist of only 2 sausages, eggs & red beans, sigh...

This week has been a damn busy one, every morning moved out for exercise, then back to camp late at night. Follow by a rush back home to bath & change, then rush out again. I realised that I have attained a new threshold on e time I should be asleep; 1am.. Around that timing, I will start to yawn, tears start flowing from e eyes & I will start to slur abit, lol. Well, because of e rush, I have 'received' a few injuries; last week cut my finger while using a penknife. & just yesterday, injured my toes when I was running out of e toilet; hit onto a tile that is jutting out underneath e sink. Cant wear shoe now, cos with just a slight pressure, blood will just flow out, Zzzz.. Well, its worth it, cos I will have more time to go out with her, wahaha.. Wtf, my skin looks so reddish, cos of e tanning I acquired when I was building & tearing down e command post on top of e 3 tonners for e past few days. Well, e view on top was good cos our situation was located on a top of e hill, can have a bird eyeview towards e tuas crossway, somemore still can see sunrise in e morning.

I'm actually quite worry how this thing been going on, e direction we are heading to & e answer that you have to give me one day. Somehow, one cant stop being irrational when falling in love, but I have been thinking e about e consequences over & over again; it reaches e same conclusion, always. Anyway, it takes two hands to clap, thats why I chose to do whatever that I'm doing now. Do me a favor by not telling me that you arent good, that I'm wasting my time. Why? Cos you arent providing any solution to me or to yourself. I have faith in you, dont disappoint me..
The past few days have been e best ones for e past one year, thanks..

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Strange

Its a wonder how things escalate to this stage. What should I do? Somehow I feel that its going at a rate too fast, that I cant even believe myself doing it, ha.. No more thinking, go have my supper liao!

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

To be continued.

So far, this has been e best conversation. Like e way she talks when she's serious; alluring~ heh. Hmm, I think this is e closest to what I have always want, but I'm still stuck at a certain stage. Shall wait & see, till then!

Monday, November 26, 2007

Feelings galore.

Within a 2hr span, I was worried at first, followed by nervous, confuse, speechless(didnt know how to put words across), then happy(for a very very brief moment), helpless, sian & lastly, pondering.
I realised that what that I had wished for 20mins ago, didnt happen, fucking shit.
Cant sleep. One stupid solution; not this one.
How to count sheeps when I'm actually thinking of something else? Sigh...

Sunday, November 25, 2007

Hard.

....
It took me damn long to even put down this sentence, cos I dont know how to start. Cant even really type down e thoughts on my mind now. I think its too fast for me to make any decision now, let alone to get any answer out of it. Fuck, e sense of urgency keep building up in me, but I cant do anything at all, can I?
I do mind, but to say it, will just make things more difficult. No mistake this time, I cant afford it, cos I dont want to lose you. I need more time to get it right, please dont prove me wrong...

Friday, November 23, 2007

By its own course.

Strange.
It just get stronger each day.
& I'm very sure its different from e others, especially when it parts. How should I put it? It seems so impossible that it can ever happen on me, yet it just 'snap' & is slowly becoming a fixture in my life. Whether to accept it anot, both have dire consequences. So, lets fate play a part in what it suppose to play a part, lol. Meanwhile, I just hope for something to happen & e conclusion shall be my final calling.

Thursday, November 22, 2007

...

I dont know what am I doing. It keeps constantly sucking me in, yet I didnt choose to run away.
Think I'm falling. Shit.

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

Random

Bad ride on bus 961 this morning.
Was too sleepy, fell asleep during e ride to camp & I kept hitting e glass on my right, Zzzz. As usual, I woke up before my destination... to fell asleep at e last moment. In e end, overshot by 3 bus stops, wtf.
Yesterday night, watched 'Stardust' with Beng(birthday boy), chang, gui, alan & kejia. Nice show leh, but e witch ending damn stupid, I think most people will agree with me after watching it. Anyway, I give it a 4.5 /5 stars rating, so catch it over e weekends!

Sunday, November 18, 2007

Beautiful.

Yesterday night gathering was great, had bourbon, whisky, beer & white wine! Haha, think e most enjoyable part was e finger number guessing game; eddy had difficulty in mastering it - psychomotor! Poker was great! I won again! Sorry guys, I promise I will win more next time, hee.. But I had a drink too much, almost all e liquers were finished & I ended up sleeping on e couch; I dont remember how I got there but at least I didnt puke. Running a fever now, shouldnt be e drinks right? Most probably is shiyan pass to me one -.- So, I didnt go for work today, asked ken to replace. Been sleeping almost e whole day & my head is still spinning, arrr... Think I'm going to get a mc if it get worse. Current temperature - 38.

Eva mendes

She is damn hot la! Omg e feminine :p Most of all Beautiful! I came across this video when I was watching a stupid video of college students doing a replay of FF7, hence I placed it as my current video. So,please enjoy it guys!The song also quite nice, if I'm not wrong; by a switzerland singer - Patrick Nuo. Was wondering this sentence; when you feel someone is more important than yourself, it maybe love... I think I'm going to lie on e bed again, headache again.

Saturday, November 17, 2007

Sigh...

Tire.
Whole body is aching, only get to reach home at 630am this morning; was having a conversation by e riverside bar after leaving Zouk. I was rather speechless when I heard e family background, quite shaken by e doings of e parents to their children, arent parents e one that are suppose to provide care, warmth & shelter to their sons & daughters? I feel sad for her & I could see e pain in her eyes especially when she was struggling to control her tears. Hai..no wonder she appears to be so gloomy most of e time. Suicide came across to her umpteen times & luckily she didnt do it. Such a bright & clever girl, yet have to live with this kind of shit all e time, I really admire her strength & bravery to go through it. Hope that good things turn out for you :)

We often question about whether we have choices; we do have, for most of it. Some are however beyond our control & somehow it proved to me this morning...

Friday, November 16, 2007

Loss.

To bore to blog.

Ha. Finally home! Been staying in camp since tuesday cos of e implementation of 5BX(5 Basic exercise) which is basically 5 sets of simple exercises to warm up your body in e morning, followed by a 1.5km run & then .... back to sleep again, Zzzzz. Fuck la, it has to conduct every moring at 615am, how to book in before that? When e gates only open at 6am? Luckily I managed to know of this new game, "Final fantasy tactics" on psp, good enough to keep my boredom at bay, ha. 3 more weeks to my long break! & I'm already in holiday mood! Actually quite afew significant event took place this few days, but I cant remember of any now :( Strange huh, I often have this kind of memory lapse, then I will recall it after a few days or maybe e next moment... Till den.

Saturday, November 10, 2007

Sigh.

I just realised that I'm a fucking failure.

Friday, November 9, 2007

Strange.

Its hard to be nice sometimes.
Especially when you try your best to accomodate others, but people just... Sigh.. But I guess $ is always e main culprit, which easily sways your choices from black to white. I have & always been honest about e pricing of stuffs, giving e best to my friends, so that they can save more? More than often, I dont earn a fucking single cent, e most 10bucks for a high volume transaction? & it makes me wonder why some of them would rather pay a higher price to others for e stuffs, when I can actually give at a lower price & yet provide a 100% assurance? Strange but true, that those friends that often buy from me without questions & doubts are merely acquaintances? So, my advice is if you dont trust me, then dont ask me. If you want to know, dont doubt e facts after I present to you. Of course, I know everyone wants to get e best price & there is no harm asking, but its damn frustrating when you get doubt(not to mention; your close friends), dont everyone?

Watched "The gameplan" yesterday, quite a good show, I think I teared during some scenes, dont laugh! After e show, I was waiting for e last bus for a good 15mins, then I realised no more bus liao, Zzzzz. Morning was already bad enough, I only realised I didnt bring my ez-link when I boarded e bus, luckily I got some loose change, haha. So.. I made a call to siqi, asked him out for supper, but he was at boat quay drinking. Alright, change of mood, suddenly felt like drinking. Somehow, I felt like taking a walk & wasnt in a rush too. Lol, it takes just 20mins to walk from Plaza singapura to Boat quay! To my dismay, its a karaoke pub, nothing much to write on. I went home after 2 mugs & I think it caused me to have gastric pain. Wrong. When I reached home, there were food! Mutton curry! Fried fillet! Honey glazed chicken! Huat la! I gobbled up e mutton, it tasted... heavenly! Omg la!

So, I had gastric due to my skip of dinner, hee.. Anyway, my apologies, thanks for being understanding at times; beng :) Time to prepare for work!

Thursday, November 8, 2007

Long weekend!

Yeah..Long weekend till tuesday next week! But I'm working today, Zzzz... Sian, seems like there is nothing to write. Oh, watched 'Rendition' with my brigade yesterday. Quite a draggy show, lots of dialogue, little action. Definitely not a hit with e girls, lol... Hmm, what should I do tonight?

Monday, November 5, 2007

Past few days.

Friday night.
Total mess.
After having dinner at Vivocity "No signboard" restaurant, me, victor, james, marcus & guojun went over to Zouk. Initial plan was to make marcus drunk but guojun got drunk too. Poisons used were 2 jugs of long island tea, 2 jugs of vodka lime, 1 jug of whisky dry, 1 jug of vodka orange (for victor cos he drove), 2 shots of tequila & 2 glasses of graveyard(REALLY suck la). After I finished e last jug, we hit e dance floor. Then e problem started. I dont know what really happen, 1st thing I knew, guojun & marcus were being pushed away & e guy who pushed them was swearing & telling them to back off from his girlfriend. Noticing e commotion, a bouncer came over to whisk our group away except me, cos I was appeasing that guy, explaining that e both were drunk. Thinking that it has been settled, I went to e gents. However, no one was in sight when I was out of Zouk. 1st call was to james & he told me that they were at e carpark, so I proceeded there. Still, I couldnt find there, so I made another call. Then he told me they were remanded at e private carpark & e other party decided to press charge against both of them. Little did I know that e 'victim' & her boyfriend got after those 2. I couldnt get access to them & through e phone, I was told that e victim accused e 2 of them of groping under her skirt, WTF! Soon, e police came over & statements were taken, guojun was e only one brought to e station. Then, all of them were allowed to come out. After some discussion, I approached e 'victim' & her friends; tried to talk them out of not pressing charges. Hai, they just wouldnt budge, stating e two of them were too 'xialan'. Really damn fuckup, 1st time kena such thing, somemore I didnt even seen e girl before until they were released from e carpark, Zzzz.

Saturday, all of us were worried about guojun cos we havent heard anything from him yet & his parents were unaware of it. I heaved a relief after knowing that he was released at around 4pm. Now waiting for e outcome, hope that nothing happen to him.
Met up with peiwen, nicholas, shiyan for dinner at tanglin halt. I was late, prior to that, watched 'Brothers' with beng at JEC. Sian, I lost this time round, around $30 for e poker ba. Haha, siqi joined us at a later time, by then, 3/4 of e bacardi rum was finished & he suggested to go Zouk -.- Which we did go, haha.. Peiwen & I took aaron's car, I arent an expert on cars, but it was definitely tune to e max. Imagine 3 high idiots on that car, including e driver, weaving in/out of traffic; dangerous indeed. So, I decided. After getting my license, I sure go get a used civic & 'zhen' it, wahhahaa. Alright, I miss e gig in Zouk, cos most of e time was in Phuture & none were trance lovers, except peiwen who left early.

Sunday.
My suspicions were confirmed. There is really something wrong with my stomach. I realised that e next day after each drinking session, I bound to develop stomach pain & e stools which came out initially will always be black! And I also had diarrhoea for e whole morning, reported for work at 2pm instead. Had a company meeting & I wasnt really happy about e contents. For which, I kept quiet though it wasnt my issues that I'm unhappy about. I'm just 'feel' displaced. We then went for supper at Park royal hotel's Swensen, previously known as Crown prince. Didnt know that e black pepper seafood pasta is so nice! Finally a change of menu for me; I always & only order fish & chips, lol. Maybe I was too tire, fell asleep twice on e tabe, lol.

Today
Diarrhea is back! So, I took a day MC. Hehe, another reason is that I was too tired, only got home at 3.30am leh! Spent e whole day sleeping, really sleeping, slept like a log. Met shih shih for dinner, that silly girl made a decision without concluding 1st on saturday night & is now pondering on e conclusion, Zzzz. Ha, I think I see a glimpse of hope. Ahhh.. My eyelids are closing soon.

Friday, November 2, 2007

November

November.
I used to have a celebration on a specific date on this month. Coincidently, in a bad way, that was when e r/s came to an end on this very month too. I realised that I'm still not ready for anyone else, though e notion of getting involved with someone nice often struck me hard. Yet, I still miss her alot. Sometimes, at work, I can be miles away, deep in thoughts of her. I know.. "wtf right?" Cant help it though, been trying to solve that la. Then, e strange thing is that everyone wants to see me attach badly, cos its more norm for me? Haha, think I dont want meh? Its not easy to get acquainted with girls easily, not to mention a nice one? Even so, not every nice girl is e type that I will want. Hoho, luckily I'm blessed to know alot of nice girls... but only one or two is my type? & e sad thing is, they are attached. However, I think it just bores down to fate, already resigned myself to this statement "If it will happen, it will happen" . :)

Marcus's birthday tonight, need to get out soon to get his present.
I see red wine coming! Wahahaha... Diao, I suddenly thought of "动感超人" , Zzzzzz.