Married!

Wanted to update e blog for e past few days, but was dead tire when I reached home. Though I didnt went outfield, this past 2 days had been spent drawing maps, damn boring + tiring. Sigh, have to finish e drawings by tomorrow. My legs & back are aching, e leg due to e biathalon training yesterday, 20 laps of swim & 8km run. Ha, as usual, I wasnt paying attention to e instructions, ended up running around 12km. No wonder, I couldnt see sgt chua ahead of me; anyway only 2 of us ran, lol. My back? Hmm, maybe due to e lack of good sleep, dont know what's e cause too. Anyway, back to monday, e most important day for 4 person.

2 weddings on e same day, coincidence huh. Well, e 1st couple, micheal & debbie! Went with my brother, his girlfriend(till now then I realise I dont know her name) & dave. Lol, dont know is suay or what, e camera that we brought along wasnt fully charged, my brother claimed that he charged for at least an hour, I tried to believe him. Battery flat after 2 pics, nabei. So these are e two @ ROM (For those idiots who dont know, Registry Of Marriage)

My bro & me

My Bro, his gf, me, micheal & dave. Why e bride not included? Just simply left out, lol.

Before e solemenisation, before freedom. I kept on humming e tune of 'wedding march' to spice up e atmosphere; micheal was nervous la, haha..

Alright, e rest of e pictures were taken with micheal's camera. So couldnt upload those photos, some random photos from my 6300. This place really brought back alot of memories, though I never had e chance to bring anyone here before, maybe I did have, lol. Kinda disappointed when I walked through e grounds, couldnt find any saga seeds :( Haha, used to go over to e fort canning side to pick. Luck with me, I spotted one as we were leaving e grounds :0

The 2nd couple; my cousin. However, we arent blood related cos they are from my stepfather's family & I only met her thrice for my whole life, ha. Anyway, I went there for e wrong reasons, for e sake of going & for e good food :)Swissotel leh. Of course not la, Zzzz.. Actually I like to attend weddings, to see e newlyweds exchanging vows & wearing of e rings on e most important day of their lifes. Just looking at their face & one can have e 'xinfu' feeling. Ha, I teared again. Zzz, alot of people were asking whether my brother is e elder one..

One thing to note, e food isnt that good.. But got alot of Chio bu!!!!!!

Well, let's wish e 2 newlywed couples a happy & blissful marriage!

Greeting cards!

Ha.. Clearing some of my stuffs in my room now. Came across a folder which I keep all e greeting cards, birthday cards & letters that were sent to me over e years. Ha, am looking through them now. Some are downright funny. This is a classical example "Hi there An Liat! I'm quite @ a lost as to what to write to you. But still, I got nothing to write. hehee." From: woan ni in 2001. Lol, it was a x'mas greeting la, damn funny. Some are quite nice, handmade somemore. "Wishing you a Merry xmas & a happy new year. Not only on 25th Dec & 1st Jan. But everyday of your life", this is sweet, from: sharon 2001, who happens to be one of those who gave me e most cards, ha. However, I realised a worrying trend, e cards I received are getting lesser as I grow older o.O Sadly, e record for this year is zero, kinda sad huh..(not even chinese new year card, nabei) Besides those, I have quite a no. of bookmarks & those 'motivation cards', suppose to give me motivation, but I have chucked them in these folder for years, muahahaa.. Also cant remember who e ones who gave me(didnt write name), but mostly contributed by dorcas, ha. Funny thing is, almost all are sent by girls, those with guys are often in groups, wtf..
Nevermind, shall pack them another day.

Boring day.

Damn bored in camp. Was at e new specialists' mess just now, e whole place feels damn homely, especially e new sofa seats, am sure that I will fall asleep if left there alone for more than 2 minutes, heh. Actually, I went over to have a game of pool with yan chong, but e officers were around, lan lan, had to wait lo. While waiting, I read 4 sets of newspaper; yesterday & today New paper & Straits time. Finally our turn came, only halfway through e 2nd set, his boss called for him, so lan lan again, played alone lo, Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.... Boring day ar!!!!!!

10mins.

As it turned & walked away, e notion of chasing after it did occur to me. But I didnt dare to, cos I dont know what e repercussion might be; a nightmare.

I really felt damn stupid for that 10mins.

Camping...

I thought I will be having comfort at home right now; rushing work alone in camp instead, Zzzz..

Finally, back in camp after 2 long weeks. The feeling is so damn different, being in camp makes me moody, somemore am already in ORD mood. So, what did I do today. Book in e morning, had breakfast in e cookhouse. Did some paperwork & slept from 10am onwards till 4pm, then woke up to have my late lunch cum dinner at e canteen. I was already preparing to book out, got an dental appointment later at 12pm; I was told. 'Charlie, still got e terrain thing that needs to be done... by tomorrow afternoon.' Great, so here I am, doing my work & online at e same time. Sigh, 21 more days to ORD. Ya, one more good news, I have to go for a 4 days exercise in Tekong island next week. Fucking shit, who goes for exercises when you are already one week away from ORD? Arrr!! I hope that I have another appointment during e exercise period!

On e other hand, I love e serenity of being able to work alone while listening to songs. Abit cold though, ha.

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Regrets? I have afew. But I dont keep regretting them.
If there are answers to everything, life would be fucking dull.
So I choose e easy way; to laugh it off, always.

Thread lightly.

Does it seems that I takes things too lightly at times? I dont really care. Alright, its not because I dont care, but I had always do something about it before I go into that stage. Ya, sometimes I do give a careless attitude, even towards my close ones. Cos I cant be bothered too much about it? I dont know, sometimes it just trivial matters, nonetheless am still concern; at a superficial level :)

Sian, cant eat this cant eat that, cant do this cant do that, so am rotting at home. Been having porridge & soup for e past few days, cos of e wisdom tooths removal & I still look like a hamster with puffed up cheeks, Zzzzz.. However, I still went Zouk yesterday, to help siqi accomplish his next conquest on e dance floor, ha. Got a good news, my stay at Depot road is extended for another 2 weeks plus? Cos my mum managed to get an extension & I still can get into e city area within 15mins :) Sadly, this time round, I will be doing e packing alone for my room & I had cleared 1/4 of my book shelves this afternoon. Sia la, still got alot to pack but I guessed I shall leave it until next week, if not my room will be stacked up with cardboxes. Ya, happy valentines' day to everyone, though I never really celebrated it before. When I used to have girlfriend, its just a normal dinner, no particular restaurant &/or maybe movies? Just like a normal day lo, of course, now I dont have one, it seem abit lonely at home. Yes, I long for one nice lady who can be beside me now at a theatre or restaurant, but I kinda grown use to it. Even e relevations on monday night didnt affect me much, just made me realised how stupid you are, in a cute way, ha.

Time to eat porridge again, arrr....

An entry for you two.

When I was in bmt, I met a skinny guy who slept directly opposite to my bed. Without fail, he always bring lots of snack to camp whenever we booked into tekong, especially his trademark grape biscuit. Initally, I find him abit too philosphical, gradually he made me realised that I'm e one instead, lol. Together with my section, we did alot of stupid things together, except 'chao keng' wahahaha.. Finally, POP came & along with afew others in my section, we went to SISPEC together, but sadly in different company. However, this friendship did blossom over time, we kept in contact. Towards e end of my relationship with joyce, he was there by me, encourgaging me, even when it failed. Of course, there were alot of other good friends too, I appreciate all e same :) We often meet up for coffee, talking about life, where we stand, what we want our future to be & e ideal partner to be with. On numerous occasion, he tried to introduce nice ladies to me, but sadly none to my liking, ha. Finally, he got his fair lady, whom came down all e way from australia for him(maybe still have other reasons, ha) Well, this lady I can say, is well match for him, both have e same level of intellect, e intuition of each wants & e same kind of idiocy. Both often give me advices on decisions & e stupid stuffs I had done. Though each has their own point of view, they always proved valuable & did provide me awakening sometimes. Ya, to think of it, one of them always provided me e logical & e other, emotional. Alright, I think without e both of you, I would have miss out alot of fun for e past few months. Appreciate for e care & concern that you both offered all along, I still need them, wahaha.. The e loss of you two dimwits to Australia will be greatly missed, very sad:( Anyway, all e best to both of you, shiyan & kaira, have fun & practise e 'positions' I told your :p thanks!

I will be there in July! Hopefully with someone in tow. Ha.

Part 2

Haha, didnt have e time to write this few days.

Saturday
Due to some mixed up, e lunch gathering at shiyan house was cancelled. However, I still went over to 'bai nian', main motive is to get angbao :) Next, went over to bedok to pick kaira up & made e movie booking at her house. Maybe its chine'se new year, e booking took us damn long la, shiyan & I did try to book e tickets at our house respectively, but couldnt get through e system. Watched 'Kungfu Dunk', damn funny seh, before e show, I thought it was some action movie with little dialogue cos of Jay chou. Turned out to be a action comedy, not bad, I had a good laugh. Followed by dinner at jack's place, located at west coast. Why so far, cos those 2 idiots want to play bowling. Hahaha, I got 2 rounds above 100pts, considering e fact that I have played less than 5 times in my whole life & ... I dont like bowling :) Next stop was at my house, we had rum & tequila, hehe.. Kaira got drunk,"I not drunk yet. I not drunk yet" Haha, funniest thing was at e lift landing, she was leaning forward trying to press e lift button. Instead, her head met e wall & she fell one floor, wahahahahahahah!! Wasted la, I didnt take a good snapshot! Haha, you guys are in Australia, cant do anything to me wor! Anyway, I take my hat off to shiyan, damn patient ass. Kaira, you got home back in one piece thanks to him.

Sunday
Was busy preparing food in e morning & was waiting for my relatives to come over, had a lunch meal with them at 2pm. Hence, went to work late, luckily ken got e time to relieve me for awhile. Went to Dave's house after work, gambling time, this was a long awaited moment, Ken & I have been waiting to win back e $1k that we lost 2 years back, I think e only one who didnt know this amount was joyce. Anyway, I nearly won back e amount!!! Wahaha, around $920 ba, currently my biggest win. Dont worry guys, I will strive harder to win more next time. Till next year then!

Part 1.

Wao. It was a damn busy week, let me recap.

Wednesday
Chinese new year eve, went back to camp in e morning for a pre CNY celebration, organised by e BRC guys. I thought I was late when I woke up at 7am, took a cab down to camp. It was only when I met up with pradeep, then I realised; I told him to meet at 815am lo, Zzzzz.. Anyway, e 'Yu sheng' was fabulous, sadly, it was e only one I had for this new year :( Back at home, had reunion lunch with my family. This time round was held in e afternoon cos my brother had to attend his girlfriend's family reunion dinner, hence, mine was in e afternoon. Supposed to have went down Zouk, but almost everyone pulled out in e last minute, family commitments. Instead, my cousins joined me for a movie at cineleisure; 'CJ7' . Not as funny as I thought it would be, but Stephen Chow made his point, I was touched by certain scenes.

Thursday
This year's plan was slightly different, it used to be that my brother & I will go over to my maternal grandparents house, then to my paternal side & back to e former. However, this year, we went straight to my paternal side, as usual, crowded, cos all crammed in a 3 room flat. Lol, 1st time I had my 'Chu yi' lunch there. I dont know why, e rapport with my youngest uncle, whom I call 'Xiao shu' was unusually good, ended up drinking 8 cans of beer, 2 corona in between with him. My brother left earlier with his girlfriend, so I was left alone to fend myself off from e endless questions. Seems like they dont remember joyce broke up with me 1.5 years back; "Where is your girlfriend?" I explained, I already saw it coming before they asked e next. " Why now dont have?" Zzzzzz.. But it wasnt this thing that affected my mood for e rest of e day, my dad suddenly dropped a bombshell on me. "I wanted you all along, you with me & your brother with your mum, I have wanted you to stay by my side, but I couldnt bear to separate you 2 brothers." Ha, after 17 fucking years? I also dont know what to say, rooted on e spot, was controlling my tears. Deep inside me, I was throwing out all e past memories on what he had done for my mum, my brother & me all this years. Sadly, none. But I never hated him for that, e hatred was on why he left us & it dissipated long ago when I was in my teens. He's 51 this year, getting old, yet still drinks alot of beer, am glad that he has a good wife now who can take good care of him. Well, he did ask me to move in with him in 3 months time & I did contemplate; one thing is that I want to catch up with him for e lost 17 years. I dont know, see how things goes, I need to take care of my mum too. In e end, I left for my maternal grandparents house at 6pm, another 1st time; normally leave at 4pm. I was already having a slight headache, took a cab down instead. Along e way at choa chu kang, saw my poly schoolmate & I tried to locate her no. from my poly mates. Found out that, I have her no. all along, Zzzz.. Nabei, lost $60 to my cousin on blackjack, dont know which fucker told me that those born in e year of ox got good gambling luck this year, pui. Throughout e game, I was downing malibu, ended up with a severe headache, great.. It was too noisy in e house, so I went to e staircase landing, sat by there to rest for awhile. Surprise, my 2nd uncle, 'Er jiu' came out to find me, I thought he was going to give me some for his slapstick jokes again. Come to think of it now, I find it quite funny. (In chinese)"Boy, you free anot now?" "Ya." "Let's go down & have a walk" I was like, "huh? Orh." He told me about how he won my 'jiu mu'(his wife), why they got together(against all odds) & live in agony now cos of their marriage woes. At first, I didnt know why he want to tell me all these things, cos he's known to keep things to himself, never to worry others. Then he told me that my mum was worried about me, cos I kept drinking ma & she thought it was because of joyce. Ya, OMG.. I was drinking cos my drinking mood came! Not because of any sad thing, though I was quite affected by my dad's words, it didnt contribute to my binge. Siao la, I thought to myself, they got e wrong picture. Anyway, what my uncle said gave me another insight into marriage. Of course, one case that went horribly wrong doesnt generalise e whole thing. I'm glad & thankful that I didnt get married 2 years back.

Friday
Okie, woke up with a headache on friday morning, slept till 1230pm. Went to my stepfather's brother semi-d at Limau gardens. Sia la, I only see my step cousin once a year & suddenly e girls has become ladies & e guys, gentlemen. Well, I didnt mingle around, chose to sit at one corner, reading newspaper. Left at 3.30pm, met marcus for pool. Then, xiuling, james with his cousin joined us. It was james's birthday, so we ate at swensen for dinner, yanling, victor & yinying joined in too. Too bad, cant have birthday song, as james not suppose to have any form of celebrations this year. Then, my cousin, reiko came down to join me. Sian, comes to clubbing, always end up with one small group. The usual suspect, james, marcus & me. Oh, plus reiko. Initially we went to Zouk, but cant hiong reiko in, you dont look mature enough la. So, we walked to Double O, james exclaimed "Wad lao, last time walked from double O to Zouk, now e other way round...." Ha. Luckily, we managed to get in, if not I would have to fork out $20. Siqi & lydia joined us at around 12pm, starting to get packed on e dance floor. Wa, e long island sucks, e worst I ever drank, dont know why they put in lemon tea syrup! Its not supposed to be that flavor!!! The night went by, james went off earlier, didnt have e chance to drunk him. The rest, already high & I witnessed afew silly stuffs done by e them, some which were really omg, Zzzzz... I saw a group of ladies wearing cheongsum on e dancefloor, they have damn nice hourglass figures! Too bad, I didnt approach, neither did e rest; cos they didnt see them, wahahaha! Well, e fun ended with me & marcus walking towards Liang court to draw cash. Found out that they dont have pencil & paper there; couldnt access e atm machines in e building. No choice, marcus had to pay e cabbie thru nets. Sigh, I was longing for someone badly, but I didnt dare to do anything about it...

Some thinking.

I have no other choice.

Chinese New Year

I miss e white cheongsum, ha. Its going to be a long dreadful day ahead, Zzzzz...

Its better to have loved & lost than to have never loved at all.

Made a trip down to library yesterday afternoon & got some books to cover my boredom for this 2 weeks. Then, met up with marcus for pool at cineleisure. Ha, I saw someone there; a shadow of someone, a lady in evening dress with high heels playing pool, shrugs~ Went off at around 5pm, got some groceries at ntuc for e evening dinner. I prepared seafood spaghetti; just a simple throw of mackeral, mushrooms, tomatoes, crabsticks & sotong(sticks), just one hour to cook nia, lol. Ya, a bottle of ice wine was thrown in(for shiyan), my collection down to 8 bottles of gold reserve liao; sent me some when you guys are in australia! Anyway, e dinner was e four of us, shiyan, kaira, peiwen & me. Yeah, e desserts from inter-continental hotel were nice; courtesy of peiwen. I going to get e rum & raisin cake next time! Followed by a brief talk cock session & movies at tiong bahru plaza; 27 dresses. Somehow, one of e before show trailers made an impression in my mind, 'The leap years.' Especially e sentence, 'its better to have loved & lost than to have never loved at all.' I guess everyone heard this before, but when was it e time that it really made us realised? Hmm... I finally understood it yesterday.

Back to e movie. Sia la, Katherine Heigl damn feminine ar! If only more singapore girls can carry off themselves like her, wahahaha.. Alright, e show quite nice ba, cant imagine that a girl can be bridesmaid for 27 times & actually enjoying it. Her social life must be damn bad, however it proved otherwise.
Conclusion:?
I want my future solemnisation to be held at e beach! If I ever get married, ha.

Lost of faith.

I'm damn stupid..

Not a good day.

Early morning wake up, saw 2 msg, but I dont know how or what to reply. So, I didnt reply. Anyway, I was lying on my bed running through my phone inbox & sent sms. Ha, I dont know wtf am I doing again.

Wasnt a pleasant day, I woke up with a splitting headache & runny nose. Somehow, couldnt find any replacement, so lan lan went to work. After 10mins, bus 195 came & I realise I forgot to bring wallet. As I was about to step out of e bus stop, it started to rain, cb. Went home, grabbed my wallet & was on a taxi down to queensway. Took a tablet of paracetamol & it made my headache worse. Sian, finally got to zhao at around 5pm. Then szehui called when I about to reach e exit; I forgot my phones. Arrr!! Went back to take it. Upon reaching e exit, I was greeted by e sight of rain again, cb....

Reached home, had a good sleep till around 8pm, went holland village to have coffee with shiyan & kaira. Lol, my last week with this crazy, fun-filled & loving couple before they jet off to australia. When will it be my turn? Ha. I did have my turn, not once, but twice & I considered myself both very lucky/unlucky to have met e 2 special ladies in my life; excluding my mother.
Lucky? Cos they were both very fine ladies, clever & most importantly(sadly) e type I would like to spend e rest of my life with. On e other hand, I wasnt lucky enough for e 1st, cos of a differ of faith. As for e 2nd, it was ruined by my own hands. Though a late salvage was done, it was already too late. Both taught me alot of things about life & even set some of e principles that I'm still living by. Of course, I no longer indulged myself in e past, they served as best, memories. Few days back, when I was running a high fever & lying on e bed, I longed so much for someone just to be by my side. Ha, none cos I was in camp. Oh ya, like to thank those who called & msg me, it kept my heart going when I felt like dying, LOL... 14 more days to go, I wonder..

Now already 4.13am, wtf am I still awake? Arrr....

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I am fucking miserable, do you know about it?

I only got myself to blame. Gdnite...

Laughing at myself.

in future whoever going to be ur wife gonna be lucky..

Felt a sharp prick in my heart when I saw this line addressed to me.

By someone who was close to me....

Ha.