Dead tire..

Was at MOS last night, went with marcus. Initially, we were at Zouk; wrong, outside Zouk. It was e 1st time I seen so much people gathering outside Zouk, e queue was damn long! If you were to start queueing at 11pm, I think by e time you get into e club, you can prepare to go home le. Haha, we did try to cut queue by thru e velvet queue & we managed to step into e entrance of Zouk, then Joel called, they were going to MOS instead. Sian, so much for jumping queue, squeezing with e crowd, ZZzzz.. MOS also had a big crowd & I was nearly denied entry due to my temporary IC not having a photo on it, fuck that bouncer. Cos it wasnt e 1st time I used that IC to gain entry into any club. Luckily, Huien could sign me in, waahahaha.

On what happened e past 3 days..

Monday
Supposed to have meet up at 1pm, but 2 heavenly kings overslept; siqi & alan. So, I decided to have lunch with my brother at Botak jones; which just opened 2 weeks ago at one of e coffeeshop near my house. The little menace wanted to tag along, somemore havent eat anything yet. Being e nice korkor, we brought her down. I asked her whether she want fishball noodle for 3 times, cos I scared she play punk with me. Great, when e food arrived, she dont want to eat & push it away, Zzzzz.. After some persuasion, she ate a abit. Buey tahan her, she like to act cute alot! I dont know how to describe, she just kept purposely closing her eyes for a brief second, then look at you innocently; okie la, I admit its damn cute!! Hai, but in e end I had to eat her share & my food! Alan also another great one, at 1st said got car, then dont have! Ended up making us slugging out at ntuc with e food & stuff. At e chalet, we were all in this 'basketball mood' ; damn long ago since we last played together. We went over to e basketball court, anyway those jokers really brought & wore their gears, I only wore a pair of slippers & jersey top, wahahaha. Diao, e ring was spoilt! Cant play liao lo, e nearest basketball court is in e neighbourhood area which we thought was like 4km away? Heng ar, three of them went for a jog & did some recce, haha.. e nearest court was only 2km away! Night time we had a special event.With e girls where's my cheesecake!

with e guys.. making his wish again..

Chang's birthday cake & his requested 'song'..Not bad, I can say for so many occasions we had planned & celebrated, that night is e best :) Zzzz, alan didnt use my cake __ Yeah, I liked e bananas... Post celebration was spent drinking on Beng's malibu & my rum. I introduced them to my grape concoction, mixed response, sad :( Not everyone was drunk, just very high. Haha, I think peishan is good at playing those number games, she always tio one! Gui, you need to train her up!

Need to go work now, I will continue e rest at night...

Holiday lo!

Terrible..
I survived my weekend guard duty... Haha, no la, its not that bad, just a 4 shift 24hr sentry duty, just that will get damn bored doing it. Die liao lo, next month I got 6 duties! Which 2 are on saturdays! Weekend burn liao.. Yesterday night was my 3rd or 4th time making oreo cheesecake? Alan & his gf came over too, they too make one, but a different flavor, lemon based one, I cant remember e name, lol. Luckily, I didnt give e recipe book back to joyce, if not wouldnt be able to make it liao. Anyway, e cake I made its for chang, his birthday cake. Yeah, this whole week is gonna be a holiday for me!! Song! One week dont need go back camp & e next 3 days I will be at aloha loyang chalet! Great, its been ages since we gathered(my sec buddies) for a chalet. Lol, bound to have some nice memories coming back.. Well, it doesnt matter, I going to have fun there! Hopefully that idiot comes too! Hee...

Sleepy..

Its been a long while since me, alan, siqi, beng & chang gathered out for dinner. It was a pre-celebration for chang's birthday which falls on this coming sunday as most of us couldnt make it on sunday. So, we went to "Zi ran jiu lou" at redhill, it happened to be e one that I went before at stirling road; they shifted there. Same as before, e food wasnt very nice, just normal, but its okie, e bill was on chang, wahahaha.. Planning still as sucky as ever, everyone got their own plans on what to do for e night; Chang wanted to watch 'Pirates:at world's end" but alan watched le. Siqi suggested ktv, but me & chang violently objected to it, haha. I wanted to club, but that idiotic beng was wearing slippers; moron, he was e odd one out with e dress code lo. Since chang was e so called birthday boy, we went down Vivocity to watch movie lo, luckily alan was driving :) At e ticketing counter, typical situation during e late hours; only left 1st 2 rows for almost all e time slots & e last show was too late for us. So how? We agreed on watching "Next" but chang damn stubborn, only wanted to watch Pirates. Okie, so fuck it, we didnt get to catch any show at all. Instead, we went to a store to get chang's present, a denim jacket, cost $60 on e spot, that guy has a soft spot for denim stuff. Then, we over to e Tagger store, I wanted to get one!!But seems like e initial enthusiam I had in it is no longer there, moreover, chang told me there's a shop at Alexandra village which helps you customise & make your own bag, sweet.. Next stop, Espirit, basically I dont like most of their clothings, but I still got a T-shirt for myself, lol. Maybe Zara next week ba, I like e shirts there! After e shopping, we wanted to go some place to chill out, since clubbing was out of e question, we walked around vivocity to find some place to sit down & "la" kopi. Ended up at e roof & chang keep pestering us (like a 4yr old kid whining for icecream) to sing him a birthday song, wtf lo... Then, he saw Ben & Jerry on e 2nd floor, so for e next half an hour we were there eating ice cream & crapping about e icecreams. Ya, chang, you cb, buy icecream for ownself _l_ Anyway, e peanut buttercup & berry berry flavors are a must try!



Finally, after so much time wasting, we went over to Mt Faber. Nabei, we nearly couldnt go cos alan said petrol too expensive, niao ji niao lan, especially towards us. If its a girl asking, he sure say no problem at all, right? Haha.. :( Haha, but thanks to a computer glitch in e carpack, nothing was deducted from e cashcard when we went out of vivocity, hence we went! Alot of stupid jokes on e way too, I couldnt even stop laughing at my own jokes too! Siqi ask "Eh, this path can go up(mt faber) anot? My replied " Can.. go in then come out liao.. Cos it was a carpark, maybe you readers wouldnt find it funny, on e spot listening to it then can have e "stereo" effect, lol..



Sian, e bar was already closed when we at Jewel box. No choice, we settled down there with no drinks but at least with e nice surroundings & e endless stream of crap & lame jokes, we managed to live through it. Much of e discussion was on e chalet, yeah, I am going to cook dinner again for them on Monday! Hehe.. Before we went off, we took a group picture. Someone had to take e picture, so I was e one. How I ended up inside e picture? Stupid, use photoshop la, I imposed my picture into it...
NO LA! I used timed shot la & I look so out of place.. Fuck, my phone even dropped once during one of e shots.






The four retards. Especially e 1st one from e left.




P.S
I wrote this entry in a half asleep mode, wahaha... & edited it in a sober state at 1.05pm 26/05/07, hehe..

Choices..again?

Yeah! Finally, I'm fetched by a lady after work! So happy! Lol, Peiwen was driving today, so she came over mindef to pick me up. Not bad la, she managed to make her way there; she's a kayu driver :) wahahaha, but I really appreciate it... & I was late, cos had to get my stuffs from shih at Queenstown. Diao, when I alighted from e car, she gave me that kind of sheepish look (-_-)" cos she saw Peiwen ma. Idiot, still got e cheek to make fun of me, I dont blush that easily leh. Hmm, e ring that I gave her came back to me le & I slipped it into e ring of my keychain. Actually, I am e one who asked for it back Ya, who would want to do that? Of course, I have my reasons in doing so & I'm wearing e one that she gave me.
Back to e evening, we actually wanted to go river valley's 'Wen tong ji' to eat chicken rice, however, there wasnt any available parking slot. No choice, she parked e car at Great world city instead. Diao, lazy ass, she said it was too far away, dont want to walk that much, so we ended up at Kenny rogers for our dinner. The baked fish was nice! The side dishes too, especially e various salads. Then, we met up with shi yan at mt faber, before that, he kept kbing on going there; one reason was 'too far from his house' zzzZzzz. Alright la, I was e one who wanted to go there; because of e nice scenic view at night & or maybe some other reasons too, which I dont really want to elaborate. The view we had from our table was damn nice, overlooking harbourfront & e link bridge to Sentosa, accompanied with a light breeze, it was relaxing, hehe...

Do you sometime wonder whether did you make e right choice?

Someone was telling me her problem yesterday & it set me into thinking, arghh... So I was at it again, thinking about e 'missing & loving' issue; e difference about this 2 words. Thanks to a kind soul, I finally understood them; it can be together & can be separate at times. Which means, you can miss someone alot yet it may not mean that you really love e person at all. However, you can also miss someone whom you love alot too. Haha, it may sound simple for most people, but it takes time to fully realise it.

Maybe I'm just too stupid huh?

Missing you..

Here I am, in e mess blogging, when I'm supposed to be in e guard room. Lol, guess that I just want to try my luck to see whether e idiot is online anot. Arghh, not around.. Sian, my 2nd shift starts at 2am, Zzzzz...
Where are u?

Rest!~

Tired sia, after a long night of dota with e usual peeps. I went because am having half day off!~Haha... But still need to book in by 4pm later for guard duty, if not I would have rest e whole day at home. Yeah, went to watch 'Blades of glory' with beng at causeway point yesterday. Lol, really damn funny & lame show. Those who require humor therapy, I strongly recommend this show to you, you will need it! After e show, we were walking in e pasar malam, very long since e last time I went to one, gone were e games & music cd stores( pirated) ones, haha. It was boring, nothing much to see too, but I managed to get some tool equipments to be use for phone repairs & some food, my mouth was itching, hehe.. Diao, sometimes I get too 'gan cheong' easily, without thinking whether is it a hoax in e 1st place. 1st thing that came into my mind was e safety of yours lo; I think I'm getting over concerned. Nice try really, I will get back at you idiot! Anyway, I also dont know what happened after e last message, hmm, did something happen again? I hope its nothing bad :(

hai..

I was thinking why some people will change; for e worse. Cos I always thought that everyone of us has e innate ability to improve ourselves, change for e better, even if you cant change, at least dont change for e worse right? In my trade, I get to see all sort of people from all walks of life. But upon seeing those junkies, I felt sad for them. I mean, they do have a choice in e 1st place right? Why make it so hard upon themselves, until e extend that they have to sell their belongings. I encountered not once, but a few times, parents telling me that they need $ to buy milk for their child. But I wonder, whether is it really for e child or their own use? I met one again yesterday, a lady; single parent, brought her child along to buy a phone. She just lost 2 of her phones two days ago, mind you, it was those high end ones. & she kept repeating her questions, so I had to repeat too, Zzzz... Actually she is a regular customer of our company, 4 years back, I remembered she was still a fine young lady. I dont know how she ended up like this, but its really a pity to see her in this state now..
Well, back to e topic. I know la, everyone change, be it young or old, just that you either change for e better or e worse. Seems like after a business trip incident, one good friend of mine seem to fall into e 'worse' category. Why I say that? Before I went army, he was one of my best friend, though he couldnt do anything to help, he was always there to provide a listening ear. I used to remember whenever I have problems with e company & some of my r/s matters, I will just kaobei to him; especially e times at e esplanade, when e two of us will sleep overnight there( not gay la) lol.. & he is a very jovial fellow, never seem to throw temper, always peaceful with everyone & had a fucking good sense of humor. We also wanted to work together in e future, to make it big in our business, which was one/ours of my dreams. But after returning back from the trip, slowly & gradually, he changed. You see, back in s'pore, he tried to contact a girl whom he got to know in Japan, but somehow, he was rejected by her. All of us thought that it was just a passing phase in his r/s life, reject only ma, we thought he would get it over soon. So, it dragged on until we realised something was really wrong. Now, he's no longer e jovial guy, who's used to be always smiling, joking all e time, just a pale shadow of himself, who keep telling us that he wants to be alone. Gone were e aspirations he had on our business too, kinda disappointing. No matter how much I tried talking to him, it just fell on deaf ears. Even asking him out now, is like inviting e president out. Worse still, he keep on thinking that people are out to backstab him, even e trust he have in us also no longer there. Well, I really dont know what to say. Really sad to lose a good friend in such way... When will you wake up & be your true self again? Hai...

An idiot guide on why you are alone on weekends

Zzzz, I really spent e whole saturday at home.
Most of e time, I was at my desk, wacking creeps away; playing dota. One must be wondering, why is this going soon to be 22 year old alone at home in e weekend. A few possibilities

• He dont have a girlfriend
• Has one but gaming is his priority
• Okie, he really dont have but gaming is his life partner
• He has no friends
• Thinks he have 'friends' but they dont regard him as one
• Or really has 'friends'; self-imaginative ones
• No one else is free except me & myself
• Some are free but e agenda doesnt suits me?
• He's a loner
• Just want to spend time alone
• use e quiet weekend as a relaxation getaway; sleep e whole fucking day

Actual fact, I was feeling sick for e whole afternoon, so e only thing I could do was to play dota. & I actually planned to go to Bukit merah library to get some books on flash player, but I was too lazy :( Then, evening time, I wanted to catch a movie but most of them wanted next week instead & I couldnt go for other activities; clubbing etc. Oh well, msn was quite quiet, some idiots were missing, hence another few more rounds of dota. Followed by some editing of e this blog's template, added imeem! Easy for me to organise songs as a playerlist, haha, anyway I think most people will just pause e song that's being played? Not appealing to most. Sian, I want to recover from this stupid flu, makes me tired out & e medicine makes me sleepy easily. Well, guess on e other side, you should be recuperating too? 2nd visit to e doctor leh, I only did that to get extra mc :) Eh maybe not. Hai, I couldnt go down today, have to work later. Arghhh!! Thinking of u..

Still giddy...

Arghh...Its been 4hrs since I woke up, still having e giddyness. Yeah,I finally had a good long sleep; 11hrs of rest! But my flu still lingers around, luckily e fever has already subsided.

I had a hard time in e office yesterday. Actually I'm only assigned to a simple task, to scan & archive copies of some old documents from 1990-1996. I was fine at e start, just keep scanning & moving e files into e various folders, then e boredom + headache started to set in. Eating e flu medicine didnt really help, though it did stop e mucus by hardening it, but my headaches became worse. So, I was like closing my eyes half e time, trying to scan e rest of e documents. In e end, I didnt finish them; my officer told us to leave earlier, heng ah...
Went over to e wake yesterday, e solemn atmosphere made me kinda sad. I cant say much too, was feeling lethargic due to e flu. Hence, I left earlier with e rest. Lol, joel & huien still asked me to go Zouk, sorry guys, too tired.. After taking a bath, I actually wanted to play dota, but e comfort of my bed was too much to resist. When I woke up, it was already 10am in e morning :)
Haha, pig still had to see doctor again, I believe in self-medication until it gets worse :( Hope you are doing fine with it, I also had to watch what I eat too, sian.. I dont want to be stuck at home!

Sick la..

Great.. I'm feeling damn sick now, seems like after taking e flu medicine, I keep having dizzy spell. Worse still, I just developed fever, Zzzz... My wounds still stings, had a bad fall on e concrete pavement when I was booking in e morning, sibei suey lo, I ended up with a red bean size bruise on my right palm & some nice decorations on e right knee cap. Luckily, no one was around for e whole afternoon, I couldnt concentrate on my tasks at all & I was very sleepy. Very cold too!I had to switch off e aircon & e fans, mucus was flowing from my nose like no one business. Unable to take it, I took a nap on e couch; sweet, I slept for 2hrs plus :)

Didnt want to go Zouk last night, I was already very tired & e flu didnt help much either.I actually wanted to go down for e wake, but e rest werent free, so it was postpone to saturday. Dont have much of a choice, alot of people were pestering me to go Zouk, eventually I submitted to it. Well, not bad, 1st time got so many girls jio me go, but in e end, I only met up with sharon & lindsey, haha, saw qianhui too! Quite chio now huh? So, e whole night was spent dancing away & half e time playing amazing race; so crowded, hard to find one another in e crowd. Hmm, I realised something then, it is a really different feeling(or should I say no feelings?)when you are holding hands with someone whom you dont have feelings for. Haha, now I finally get it, cos never have e chance to try it before? :p Some nice pictures, especially e couple one that have both sharon & siqi in it.

Sick too..

Kao, I still dont understand what's wrong in putting a condolence msg on my msn. A very close brother of mine, grandfather just passed away & it was a written as a form of respect & to let those who need to know(which I never put name?) Argh, I dont wish to explain any further. Anyway, I was too emo at that time, although he wasnt my relative, just felt sad for my brother.
Hai..So, I should had just kept quiet, sorry for any misunderstanding that I made.
Damn, I dont know how I got flu, was still alright in e morning. Then it started with dry throat; I seemed to get thirsty very easily. Followed by a swollen throat & e immense of phlegm coming out, sian, now I have to keep sneezing in my phlegm to prevent them from flowing out of my nose, irritating...
Stumped.. I cant write down some of things that are in my mind, reason being, someone will be reading it. Haha, of course it wouldnt change anything but to let it be known, will just invoke both of our past, closed.
Idiot, sick until blur liao, 'accidentally delete' e picture of my masterpiece, lol..At least I took my revenge :) Yeah, glad that you are getting better. Anyway which idiot eat macdonalds for meals when recovering from fever & sore throat huh?

Bad start..

Damn, I forgot what I wanted to carry on from e last entry.
Bad start, I woke up to see a msg, thought that it will be something good. Seeing e name made me felt nervous instead; my eyes were red again after reading e msg, fuck. Again, I was moody, then went for outfield at 630am. Hai, your reply wasnt good, no wonder you didnt update me. Hence, I was on e lookout for sunrise to snap some nice picture of it. Not good leh, e vehicle was moving too fast, pictures came out blurry. Upon reaching setup area, I saw alot of rocks around e training shed. An idea hit upon me, lol, which explain e picture, I hope you liked it! At least you laughed, hehe..
Hmm, why I got internet access, you guys must be wondering? Cos I applied satellite internet access, can get internet connection anywhere, even underwater :) Neh, I just came back from outfield, seems that I'm not very needed there & I need to run some errands too, thats why dont need go back there le!! Wahaha.. Sian, my upperstudy going to ord at e end of this month & he's on leave le, which left me & myself to sort out e errands in my branch, I'm going to be lone ranger liao. At least, this time round I get to sleep on e lower deck of e double decker bed, if not, have to endure e heat at night(my upper deck fan is spoilt :( ) If you are wondering? This is it.. most of e time I want to msg you, but I dont know what's e right thing to say. Guess that I still have problem expressing myself... Well, as far as I can concern, your smile matters e most to me now :)

Icecream makes one happy!

Wee..1st time had ice cream from Ben & jerry, somemore I travelled all e way to pasir ris for it! Eh, I forget e name of e flavor, some banana @#$. Anyway, inside got chocolate! I hate it, didnt manage to finish in e end, too full from my family dinner. Speaking of which, it was my 1st family dinner with my paternal relatives. Finally, e awkwardness between me & them has lessen alot & I'm very glad that I managed to rekindle e family bond with them. Its been 16 years since my parents divorced, yet I only interacted with them for e past 2 years. All this while, I only get to meet them once a year; chinese new year. Lol, 1st time I drank 3 types of soup at one go & my grandma told me that it was e norm for big occasions; we celebrated mother's day yesterday :)
Then, met up with xiu & marcus at pasir ris mrt. Sad, victor couldnt make it for our meeting, always '3 chair 1'... Not bad, james wasnt late this time round, then we went down to his cousin workplace which is a pub to finish his half bottle of chivas. Dont know why leh, e more I drink chivas with green tea, e more I feel like puking. Anyway, it was a quick session, next stop Babyface. Sian, I wanted to go either Zouk or MOS lo. But james wanted to accompany his sister, over there, 1 & a half bottle of martell, 3 of us plus his sister & her friend sharing. It was my 1st time drinking martell in club, e taste not bad huh? Lol.. Usual games, but marcus was not up to par leh, kept being forfeited, ya, nowadays scissor paper stone has become our default drinking game. The music sucks.... Techno infused with cantonese hits & some chinese songs, Zzzzz. The crowd, also can guess la, typical uncles, lians & bengs & I think I was e youngest there. Bastard marcus, he gave my phone no. to a lady instead of his! Idiot, reason being ' I got xiuling lo..' Heng ah, nobody called me today! It wasnt fun at all, I was quite sian, lousy music with lousy crowd. The fact that some idiot was in a bad mood & I couldnt do anything about it just made me felt even worse. So, I just sat at e table & drank lo, waiting for my phone to vibrate; I was worried la.... Sian, I cant finish this entry, got to book in earlier, 5 days outfield!! Sad, I want internet access!!!

Reflections..

Past. Yesterday morning
For all e memories I had, I'm glad that you were in e picture for e past 3 years. Well, I was flabbergasted when I heard it. Tonnes of questions were popping out from my mind & at e same time, I was trying to retain my composure, e best I could, was to cry in silence. Of course, at that moment, I wasnt in a right state of mind to think about anything, e only question that kept lingering on was 'why do you have to tell me now?'
For e next 3 hours, it seem like eternity. I was falling back into e self questioning process; why, how did it happen, what, how went wrong? It seems like I was carrying a hugh load on my shoulders, so hard to breathe, at some point I was actually taking deep breath & letting them out slowly. Finally, I feel asleep, woke up at around 1pm. Was having mild migraine, most likely due to e weather, especially when it gets hot. I wasnt blaming myself all this while, just cant accept e fact that it happened so fast. But I managed to collect my thoughts, & come to a conclusion; it doesnt matter anymore & I dont wish to know anymore too. At 930pm, met up with shiyan & siqi, they were playing chinese chess inside coffee bean, Zzzz, morons. A check with e manager, came a good news, a replacement card will be send to me in 2 weeks time & e stored value left was still intact at $21 :) Its great that these 2 jokers are around, though one is philosphical & e other sophisticated, but always been, great company to me. Supposingly, siqi wanted to meet up with lydia. In e end, four of us went to east coast park hawker center, had our dinner there, followed by crap talk.
Not bad, through this incident, I realised, as in affirmation in certain things. I should have given up long ago, I somehow will neglect some people that care about me & alot of my friends has always been there for me. Last thing is, it has shown clearly to me that I have feelings for you. You seem to be always there(this I dont know how to explain) & whenever I'm down, a sense of warmth will just envelope around me when I think of you; especially looking at your dumb pictures.
Now, I just hope that some things can change :)

Acceptance..

Thank god, I have great friends around :)
But I wish for a nice message from you, idiot! Especially when I wake up? Hehe, at least e picture of you in e dress helps when I look at e phone... Sleeping time..

Why?

Fuck up.. I feel totally screwed up now, I really dont get it, why tell me now? I really hope that; no I didnt hope to hear that at all, why cant just let me be e last to know? Haha, its e biggest mockery of my life! Yet I can only cry & laugh at myself. Missing & loving is different? I dont think I can differentiate, though it doesnt make any difference even if I do. If given a choice to me now, I would fufill e promise I set 3 years ago. Perhaps, its just too late...

Coffee is good; especially after clubbing..

Finally, I drank my 1st full cup of coffee for e 1st time in my life; not those latte, its just coffee with milk. This past few days has been mentally draining, I will doze off as long I'm in stationary mode, lol. I cant divulge much of e details on what I'm doing, all I can say is just some military stuffs. Actually e past few days, I been thinking about my future career path, more or less, its has been set. Sian, but one of e people whom I look forward in working with, told me that he dont intend to continue anymore once I ord. I was like WTF? Seems like he's too tired, afterall this trade of mine requires 100% focus, even if working hours is cut short, one still have to listen to phone calls 24/7. Haha, luckily I went through this being tired phase 3 years back, even my current officer was telling me that its good that I had e chance to manage my life earlier, cos e earlier you suffered setbacks; e chances for you to bounce back is faster & higher. Maybe its because of this belief, I always go against e odds. Well, r/s doesnt work out in this way? Currently, I also dont know what I'm doing. As in, I know its not going to happen, but I still ... & I like to follow my instincts too :p Anyway, its really good to have a cup of coffee e very next morning after clubbing. Kinda refreshes you, stops you from sleeping too :) I was dozing off while standing just now! But e effect quite short leh, so I had another 2nd cup, muahaha... I dont know whether I can dance throughout tonight, MOS lo!

Siansation

Sian, not booking out today.. Too tired, kept falling asleep during e 5 tonne deployment. I also no mood to write anything, bore bore bore. Pig, where are you?

I gona have my own set of law by 32; if I ever get to succeed in proving e theory for e next 10 years, Zzzz..

Okie, I only managed to snap pictures of e menace 2 times, lol, thanks to some cute idiot picture which she can recognise as 'jie jie' on my laptop & my phone; e girl is getting cleverer as e day goes by...

Went to catch spider at tiong bahru with beng & chang, e show kinda draggy in e middle & e villians were like stronger? Well, I didnt really like e show; some scenes were reminiscent e past. Dinner was at alexandra village with alan & joel joining us, had 'zi char', e usual favourites, stingray la, kangkong, etc.. Chang was supposed to go Zouk with me & siqi, but last minute backed out after e meal, citing that no girls are going, so whats e point of going? Retarded. Then, I met up with siqi, rushed down to go in before 10pm, $15 ma, nowadays have to exercise less budget on 'fun'. So e next half an hour, I was at a nearby coffeeshop, discussing about why some people tend to get depress easily while e two of us, even though having go through so much shit, dont even have e slightest sign of depression.
This is e question: Why do some people get depress easily than others even if e latter is under more stress?
So we came out with this(from our own observations): Those that with friends that crap & joke more tend not to fall easily into depression while those that dont have these type of friend, tend to sink into depression easily.
Theory; based on this factors which I'm going to propose soon to e science society:

1. You must be a joker &/or crapper yourself; talk cock la..
2. There must be at least a joker &/or crapper in your usual cliques -> Reason being, sometimes you need a partner to joke around right?
3. One must learn to take craps & jokes easily & in return make sure e receiver can take them easily
4. Remember in your heart that crapping/joking is a form of art
5. Being lame helps at time, overdoing it just make e atmosphere colder; might work in hot days
6. Being childish is a bonus
7. Acting cute is not a requirement, but it does get you out of stupid situations :) Yes, my 6th sense know what are your thinking & want to say, save it for yourself huh, thanks!
8. I will write it down when I think of it
9. From here onwards, I think I need suggestions

To sum it all, I think e current situation is like this. Friends play a bigger role in your overall mental state, so try to hang out with people like me often & you will feel happier, maybe colder(when I'm lame)? Family does play a part too, hopefully minor; in adding stress into your mental state :) Ah, so everyone must be wondering why you get/dont get into depression right? Those that always been hanging out with me, your must be 默默地祈祷ing. Those that arent, should try hanging out more with me(preferably e ladies huh?) Muahaha... Basically, just reflect on e things you did regardless whether right or wrong. Even if its wrong, dont keep blaming yourself, instead think of what you should do to remedy e situation; which I think is e best solution.

So, we went back into Zouk at 1045pm. Great, sining didnt go, last minute said got assignment to rush & I thought I was e best in attendance. She took a step ahead of me, beside being retained for half a semester, she got warning letters to be expelled, Zzzz. I only drank one e33 for e whole night, wasnt really in a good mood. Idiot, replies also came in so late & I was standing at a corner most of e time. Chunkiat & kin each found a girl & were dancing, making out happily, while siqi went off quite early cos lydia was drunk. Hai, I was standing there looking at e messages, then e ladies dancing with e 2 morons brought in their girlfriend which I shall refer as chiobu! Hee.. Lol, I wasnt interested in her, so I continued standing, only danced when e playing song is nice. Her friends even asked me why I dont want to dance with her, peng... I kept on fiddling with my phone, somehow for no reason, e girl kept peeping at my phone. Then, finally she tiled her head over to look at it, I was like huh? What is there to see? Till now, I still have no idea why. Nevermind, she then started conversation with me; 1st line ' I just broke up with my bf just now at 12am..' Diao, I was wondering, hmm, this girl must be up to something la, for no reason tell me that for what? So, e conversation carried on, she asked me strange question like "Do you know why guys like to lie alot?" Kena spotlight, I just gave a bewildered face. Seriously, tell me lo, how to answer that? Then e conversation continued, on why she broke up with him, then she told me that her bf just gave her a diamond ring which she actually showed it to me. Then, I realised; she was telling e truth ah!! Hai, I was like... ring, again? Stupid, I shouldnt be thinking about it. Then, they went off, came back around 15mins later. Same thing happened, those 2 idiots immersed with their new found partners, I was stranded again. Then a guy started to dance near chiobu, haha, funny, I remember she tried to make suggestive dance moves to him too. Suddenly, she grabbed my left hand to her waist, I didnt plan for that! Zzzz... That guy seem dejected & I was abit stunned, so didnt say anything. So just dance with her lo, ya, e feeling of course nice la, to dance with a pretty girl. Somehow, I wished that e person will be you instead? :( I should have went MOS instead, arghhh!! Idiot.. I went out of Zouk earlier, then bump into those 3 girls again; chiobu was crying. Really sad to see girls cry over guys, I sinned too. Anyway, I also not good in consoling, hence I just said bye & went home, hahaha..


I'm just waiting for someone to take off my ring...

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The events were meant to be, though e last straw was a happy one, I still ended up being miserable...

I still dont like kbox..

Didnt have e chance to update e blog past few days; thursday night was serving guard duty, then yesterday night outing ended at 5am today. Sian, one will die of boredom doing guard duty. Its at least 2hrs for 2 shift, standing there feeding e mosquitos, luckily my 1st shift got idiot to talk to. Well, it was more like I wanted to have a long conversation with you & this month bill confirm overshot again liao, lol. Then, yesterday had a half day off, booked out at around 1230pm. Thought I was going to have a good rest at home, but I ended up playing dota till 6pm. Dinner was at geylang lorong 3, met up with JJ, micheal, ken & zhiyi over there, cos JJ said got a nice restaurant call 'wu ming ji'. At 1st, ken & zhiyi thought it was nameless chicken, must be a restaurant selling chicken rice, so we pace up & down lorong 3 to lorong 8. Fuck, those 2 idiots heard wrongly, its wu ming ju;无名居. Stupid JJ still tell me its what from 'Niao jia', even asked me whether I got watch 雪山飞虎, Zzzz. Idiot, when I was in e restaurant, it wrote 'Miao Jia', knn, another one with pronunciation problem. Oh yeah, about e food, great, I give it 90 marks upon 100. We had drunken prawns, really live ones in boiling liquer; XO i think? Braised duck meat, long beans, baby kailan & e last dish, superbly nice, egg yolk fried crab. The prawns, wa, I'm still craving for it. Very well cooked lo, when you bite e head off, e juice just come out la, then e flesh its like 90% cooked? Dont know how to say la, its like eating prawn straight from e sea, lol. As for e killer crabs, we ordered e normal crabs & e flower crabs. Both employed e same cooking style, fried with salted eggs' yolk with butter. Resulting in crisp & crunchy feeling when you bite it. Needless to say, I ate most of it :) Hehehe.. Their dishes are really one of a kind, taste very unique, those who like to eat good food, this restaurant is a definite must try!

So, after dinner, we were standing at a corner, thinking of what to do. Usual programmes la, play dota, pool or movies(& kbox) Okie, I always leave out kbox, cos I dont like to go. Omg, I shouldnt have told e idiot my dark secret, wahahaha. JJ kept kaobei saying I changed man, reason being that e last few Lan outing, I never went with them -.-" So, we decided to watch movie at cineleisure. Diao, again, most of e movies we watched le, those ulu ones, bound to have someone who had watched it. So, against my will, THEY settled on Kbox & we went over to cineleisure; haha, micheal also resisted but to no futile( He looked very sad, haha..) I think I never step foot into ktv for like 2 years le? Sian, that place damn cold la & I was wearing bermudas lo. Lol, I was very tired, think I fell asleep at around 3am. Hehe, just had a few photo session with e menace, shall upload e pictures later!

My sister inherited my dark side!

I just recalled of what e little menace did to me last night. She was eating a pack of chocolate sticks, those that looked like pocky. I wasnt craving for it, just wanted to have an interacting session with her. So, I asked for one, immediately, she shouted 'no' & held e pack tightly against her chest to shield it from my prying hands. Kena rejected, I decided to head back to my room. Just as I was about to walk off, she broke e stick into half, ah..she relented, I thought. Then from one of e halves, she broke it into 2 again. So, thinking that she wanted to let me eat, I leaned forward. She held it near my mouth & I was going to eat it. Guess what? She immediately withdrew her hand & placed e stick into her mouth instead!!! Idiot!! I swear I saw her sinister smile!! Hmph, I pinched her face; she deserved it, wahaha... She wouldnt do that to me when I'm old right? Lol...
Thats my sister, cute & yet 'guai lanz'...

Zhou bo...

Zzz, my earphone spoilt again, have to get another new one. Nothing much today, morning was lesson on Erdas; an editor cum viewer for maps. Lol, I kept falling asleep, had to make a few trips to e toilet to wake myself by splashing water onto my face. Afternoon, had a few rounds of pool with lionel followed by 3hrs of peaceful nap in e office. Dont ask me why so slack, it just that there isnt anything for me to do at e moment. I also want to have something to do, really damn bored to be in 'zhou bo' mode. Ya, yesterday result champion league result, damn it, liverpool went into finals, so e next team? I guess that its ac milan, but stupid leh, it will be like a replay of 2005 champion league finals. Man u vs Liverpool in finals seems to be more exciting right?
Sian, today going to do my 1st guard duty for e month, total there are 3 this month. Suey suey, e last one happens to be on e 31st; Vesak day lo!! Hai, cant have a week long break for e last week of this month liao..
Hmm, I kinda worry for you too, tomorrow is e hearing liao. Yet there isnt any news from you, alright, I'm just worried...

Ting's birthday!

Cant seem to sleep now, practically slept e whole afternoon away, lol. I didnt really interact much with my relatives, spent most of e time in my room. The longest moment was when I had to snap pictures of my sister . Happy Birthday Ting!

Cute, isnt she?

My mum & e menace..

~Her silly poses ~

Haha, I wonder whether will she laugh at herself, like maybe 15 years down e road?

Oh, I just got to know that I missed some drama in e morning. Well, doesnt matter, as long e result is final can liao. Sad, my watch kena alot of scratches yesterday :( Think I need to get another one? Haha, definitely not now..

Sian, got to book in 4hrs time. I wonder what are you are doing now?

Knock out night..

Zzzz, I reach home at 11am today; spent e morning at siqi's house.
Yesterday morning, reached camp in e wee hours, but something unfortunate happened; we were seen by one of e S3 branch officer. Luckily, he didnt really notice me, pradeep & xiaoyi were nervous then, kept on thinking about how many extra they will kena. Haha, e worries were in vain, e officer totally forgot about it when he reached office. The mood damn sian lo, e whole camp was literally empty, almost all e units took off lo & I was wondering wtf am I doing there. Ah, e AOH meeting, I dread that alot, cos they always like to drag e meeting till late evening. But I guess that everyone was in a holiday mood, hence ended early at 4pm plus.

Night fun! Supposed to meet up with james & marcus, but james wanted to go dbl 0 with his superiors. However, I had to be in Zouk before 12pm for sining's birthday. So, it was initially planned that we meet up with james 10pm at dbl 0 then proceed to Zouk at 1120pm.
Lol, it didnt went through, james had to be with his group till late, hence me & marcus didnt go dbl 0, we went straight to Zouk. Yeah, yongchang also came, then siqi, sining & her friends joined us. 1st time I go clubbing & I didnt get to utilise my drinks tickets. Why? Upon reaching, I got 3 extra ticket with me, one from chang who ordered sprite; who goes clubbing order sprite? 2 from sining, so I ordered a tequila shot, gin tonic & whisky dry for sining, her birthday celebration ma. But she only drank e shot & some sip of e liquers. Followed by 2 jugs of long island tea, one for me & marcus, e other jug for sining & 3 more of girlfriends; I 1st time sign card for payment, hee.. I told her if I managed to drink finish my jug faster than hers, she have to down 2 more tequila shots. Lol, they finished faster. Then, we went over Zouk & dance, siqi sorta drifted off with one of her friend o.O Yongchang was.. ahah, fishing? with one of her friends too. Around half an hour later, sining was showing signs of 'high' & they went over to e toilet. So, we guys waited outside; 40mins, she was vomitting inside. Finally she came out, so brought her to e stone ledge outside; ya, e stupid stone ledge. Surprise, siqi was there with that girl, also knock out due to my long island. Haha, 1st time I see 2 person knock out by 1 jug of long island tea.. Eh, it wasnt my intention to knock them out lo, just wanted to make them feel 'high' nia, didnt know they cant hold it well. Both brother & sister equally lousy, haha..To think that, siqi wanted to buy her flaming lamborghini!
I felt abit guilty, partly my fault too, siqi also cant send 2 girls on his own So they took a taxi & I accompany them to his house, had to 'abandon marcus & yongchang' & thats why, I have no chance to redeem my tickets, also didnt get to dance much, arghhh :( In e cab, sining was snoring & e other girl kept blabbering. Siqi ar; lots of silly antics lo, I shall have no comments on them, grins ~~ I was sleeping on e floor alone( didnt want siqi to gay with me), somehow some thoughts came into my mind, hence e stupid sms. Well, its silly, afterall its been more than 5mths.
Yeah, ting's birthday today, really gona busy later. Haha, someone wants my sister's pictures badly & I cant find e kuey ji video!!! Very tire now, I go take a nap le...