La Gata Bajo La Lluvia

Very sleepy now...
Ended my range last night & I finally got my marksman! Cos e last range, my teammates damn lousy; it requires e group to have 80% of shots hitting targets. So, even if you are darn good, but your teammates suck, you still wouldnt be able to get marksman. Sadly, I cant get e $200 cos I'm still under infantry while e range I took part in is under support company, hai..

After a search of videos on Youtube of e song "La gata bajo la lluvia", I realised it got a hugh following in Spain! Seems that alot of female contestants in that country's reality TV singing competitions often do a rendition of it; most are quite chio too!
This is a slow version http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KHoPasTlaXw&bcsi_scan_09F03AE3CB5B1BFD=cysg79E884+a07c/SC+YegIAAACurHMJ
The chiobu version
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HC370-Q69Us&bcsi_scan_09F03AE3CB5B1BFD=UhKHQH9Q9YjeNNacI11hogIAAAA9mnQJ

Its a very nice song. Enjoy!

cant think of heading la..

Damn.. I feel so guilty.
Peiwen got into an accident this morning & I was sleeping when she & shiyan were at e police station, Zzzz. Only got to know it after I woke up, Zzzz. I was damn anxious la, luckily she didnt get injured, phew.. Sorry babe, should have drunk you yesterday night instead!

Wa, I went clubbing 3 times this week. Wednesday @Zouk with siqi, nicholas & jieqi, friday @Plush with siqi & jieqi again & yesterday with peiwen @Zouk. By e way, Plush sucks! The drink sub-standard, dont know what brand one, even e bartender who served us agreed with us, LOL! The music sucks, mostly those RnB which you never hear before or dont even want to hear. Crowd sucks too, most came by guess list(free), so you can expect a bunch of cheapskates coming in huh? So... Please dont go, unless you want to have a bad clubbing experience.

Ha. I realised I always have alot of thoughts out of house, but yet when I am blogging, those thoughts seem to *poof. Nevermind, most of e time, they are senseless ones. Going for range tomorrow!

Choices; again.

Strange huh.
The more you want to hold on something dear, e easier it slips out of your hands. Yet, when its firmly in your grasp, you dont give a fuck care about it. Finally, when you choose to let it go, it just keep on coming back without beckoning. I often question myself on e choices I made, not to regret, but to self-reflect on; as a habit. Which more than often leads me to e this question, "Why did it happen?". Take wednesday night in zouk as an example, one of my friends got to know a girl in Phuture through intimate means, ha.(on e dancefloor) Well, he sort of bid me a farewell after he got e girl & disappeared for e night. Next day, he told me they ended up in bed & spent $159 for e hotel. Guess what, its not at least a 4star hotel.. Its hotel 81! Omg. Okie, thats not point, I just dont understand how would one just bed anyone whom he/she just know for barely 30mins? It takes alot of time to know someone in/out & to get to e intimacy level? Ha, I bet he dont even know her full name after e session. Though I maybe e one, eh.. Fine, I'm always e one talking about those stupid horny stuffs. But I still believe in having a sexual relationship with one that you truly love; for my case, and provided I want to marry her. Maybe I'm too conservative in some sense, but I'm definitely glad that I live by my principles :) Of course, I cant say that he's totally wrong in doing that, maybe inappropriate? Afterall, I can understand e urge of wanting it, its just so hard to bear at times; especially when there is a sweet young thing right in front of you -.-
Ha, time to go for coffee!

Saw this article on today Straits Times; Mind your body

C.S Lewis: Likings & Loves

The philosopher, theologian & writer, C.S. Lewis (1898-1963), author of The Lion, The Witch & The Wardrobe, felt e same way. In his 1960 book, The Four Loves, he devotes an entire chapter to: Likings & Loves For the Sub-human.

According to him, when we say we like/love chocolate or country walks, we mean that we take pleasure in them. Now, pleasures can be divided into two groups: those that are preceded by desire, and those that are not.

A glass of water is an example of the first type. When you are thirsty, a glass of water is a very great pleasure. But, as Lewis points out, no one ever pours himself a glass of water "just for e fun of e thing".

An example of a pleasure not preceded by desire would be e fragrance of flowers meeting you unexpectedly on your morning walk.

"You were in want of nothing, completely contended before it," writes Lewis. " The pleasure, which may be very great, is an unsolicited, super-added gift."

Lewis labels these contrasting types of pleasure: need pleasures & pleasures of appreciation.

It's characteristic of need-pleasures that they die very quickly on us. A glass of water is very appealing when we are thirsty, but becomes a matter of indifference once we have drunk it. The pleasure lasts no longer than e need.

Pleasure of appreciation are very different. The pleasure we take in e smells of flowers, e beauty of e stars or a Mozart symphony somehow seems to take us outside ourselves. We feel that: "Something has not merely gratified our senses.. but claimed our appreciation by right."

There's even a glimmer of unselfishness about pleasures of appreciation. We can imagine a wine connoisseur, on his deathbed, taking care that his vintages are preserved properly to be enjoyed by others. After all, such fine wines deserve to be enjoyed.

"In e appreciative pleasures... we get something we can hardly calling love & hardly calling disinterested (that is, unselfish)."

Ha.

Conversation

Ha. I talked to joyce mum last night, on e phone.

Shih shih was asking me about some handphone prices, when she suddenly told me that her mum want to talk to me & handed over to her -.- I was momentarily stunned, didnt know what to start with. Somehow, I managed to start "Auntie, 还好吗". I remember I used to provide her a listening ear, listening to her woes; like doing some catching up, lol. Hmm, I do miss e times when I'm at house listening to her stories, some of them do put me in awe; full of respect of this lady who singlehand brought up 4 daughters. Well, enough said. But its good that we can still talk like as if nothing happened before :)

Anyway, lets have a warm welcome for Siqi! Back to Singles' clan again! Wahahaha..

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I dont know why I did it. I changed e wallpaper on my phone. Ha. Stupid.

Relaxing time!

The opening is damn nice, follow by e piano keys, it just so enchanting..

I was having my ice vanilla latte at Paragon's Starbucks when I heard a song being played. Following e music, it led me to That CD shop. So, I approached one of e ladies for e album & she passed me a copy of it "A Love So Beautiful" compilation by High Society. As I was walking to e other section, e same lady passed me another album "Appassionante"; sang by 3 italian ladies & she asked me if I would like to hear it. This time round I took a closer look at it, omg, she's damn sweet! & of course, I said yes la. But too bad, she went to attend another customer & her over enthu colleague served me instead :( In e end, I got 3 albums which cost me $84 bucks! --> Friday night winning :) Oh ya, e last album I got is "AstrudGilberto's finest hour", very nice too! I was told she's one of e pioneers in bossanova o.O Shall upload some of hers to my player list.

whitered;redwhite

Kena recall.

Not from army ,but from my company, Zzzzz. Great, working on saturday @ my old playground; tanglin halt. Dont need to guess, I am writing this entry while working, lol.. This place has changed abit, e old hdb flats behind e new complex are all vacant, paving way for new flats once they are tear down. Alot of new shops have spruce up along e walkway & one of them will be a handphone shop :( Somemore own by one of my company's dealer. The new flats, didnt really get to see e interior, but they look nice on e outside :) Hmm, I had thought of applying this area then, quite an ideal location to me cos I like to live near e city area. If things were to go according to what I planned; if..

Sian, I cant apply leave now, my warrant seems to be angry with me. Reason? I dont really know, but from my sergeant guess; he think that 2 weeks back I had went for 3 days leave, so it seems that I been off/leave too often :( Hai, most of e time I took off is because of urgent things lo, not to just stay home & rest or go out have fun. Hmm, maybe he have his own reasons? Meantime, I cant ask for any off liao, dont even dare to take leave for e next thai trip in december; which is good? Yeah, dont need go liao lo..

Yesterday night was fun! We should have more of it! Hahahaha.. The we consist of siqi, nicholas, shiyan, qiang guo & peiwen @ Punggol field walk's sky garden; which is actually e top of a carpack, lol. The setting was like a pinic; opposite. Newspapers spread as table cloth, drinks were famous grouse's scotch whisky, jim bean, one red wine & one white wine + chicken nuggets & french fries. For e start, half glass of whisky nit(is that how u spell?) with shiyan, cos I owe him 11 shots of whisky & him, 12 shots to me over several rounds of daidee on thursday night. Then we played texas poker! Windfall! Think I won around $150, wahahahaha, must be e red wine, cos I drank at least 3/4 of it. Followed by a few glasses of white wine & interesting card game.

The setup

10 - Skip your turn
Jack - reverse
Queen - Pour any amount into e glass
King - Drink half of what's left
Ace - Drink all
4 of each cards, all are turned facedown. In turns, everyone flip a card to determine his fate. Nabei, I kena ace twice. Anyway, I found a new combo. Red + white + whisky, confirm merlion which I perform several times yesterday. Luckily I didnt have my dinner:) Million of thanks to shiyan for sending me home & peiwen for patting my back, hehe. Till now I'm still burping non-stop and it comes with a faint smell of red wine, yucks.

Omg, its already 510pm! I took 3 hrs to write this entry!

Moving on

We move on.
Because we are always getting older.

We move back.
Because there's always a set of habits & routines to catch us
& suck us back in when our guards are down.

I saw e cuts on her wrist, all e way until it ended at e elbow. The wounds suggested that it happened afew days back & she said it wouldnt happen again, I hope too. What really happened? I only had a vague idea about it & she should have talked to someone rather than take it out on herself? I feel sad for her. What does it really takes to push someone to e limits, to this extend?

It doesnt help, does it?

Time

I'm still missing something in my life.

I cant go on like this forever.

But I dont have a choice,

it just stays in e mind.

Tell me

that this is only a test

& I will

run against e sands of time

For you...

Encounter

I run out of words to describe my feelings.

All I knew was, my heart was beating damn fast & I was very nervous. I felt? Happy? Sad? A rush of emotions? Fuck, I really dont know how to put it in words.

Strange huh, that ability still havent diminish.
Her presence was felt & I knew she must be around. Instinctively, I turned to my left & saw her among e crowds. She should have seen me if she had "felt" me. So I called her, asking how she is & whether she's free to chat over a drink. Stupid, I knew she wouldnt agree yet I still asked. Inside Phuture, I was already starting to stone at a corner, then out of nowhere, she walked past me & I poked her; dont know whether thats my instinct. Crap, I was no longer in e mood to drink nor dance. On e way out of Zouk, I bumped into her again at e waiting area. All of us knows that its damn difficult to find your friends when you are clubbing, too much of a coincidence? I really want to hug her & tell her in e face that I missed her so much, but of course, I didnt do it; she going to be someone's wife soon :( So I was ranting again, retelling e same old story to marcus & receiving e same old assertive advices. But I wasnt listening, was thinking of her & thinking about what to do; to leave or to stay.

I stayed.

Instead of 2 jugs of gin lime, marcus ordered 2 jugs of long island tea, Zzzzz. I didnt want to get drunk & it wasnt a good night too. By e time I finished it(cos marcus didnt) it was like 1am liao, trance all e way at Zouk. Finally, james arrived at 3am -->wtf. Clever ass, got us red wine, got me & marcus giddier, lol. Luckily I didnt eat dinner, nothing to vomit out. On e way back home, I fell asleep in e taxi, but e nice uncle woke me up, just nice, at e traffic light beside my house :) Switch on e aircon, had a good bath & slept all e way till 11am, then I realised....

I forget to close e windows. Omg..

ZZzzzz..

I've been very sleepy for e past 2 days. Was listening to warrant Ng about some new realtime battle system just now & I dozed off while standing, Zzzz. Seems like e Ops warrant also got addicted to COH, been coming into my branch asking for rematch, lol. Anyway, I just got warcraft3 installed on one of e laptop, going to clone e rest tonight & thereafter, DOTA!

Now.. That is a good reason to make me stay in.

1973

Added James Blunt's 1973 video, very nice song! But I cant find e mp3 format one...

Recap.

Backtrack to last saturday.
Reached Changi airport at 11am, then went over to Breeks for lunch. Went home started to unpack things, felt rather strange that I'm unpacking it alone. The mind tends to drift when you arent having enough concentration on your task, maybe I was too tired, from thinking of e past again...

Met up with e secondary bunch @ CK Tang for siqi's present, which I dont know why; they got him a pair of boxers. Lol, weird right? But I didnt pool in my share cos I already got him a bottle of Hugo Boss perfume. Dinner was @ Cineleisure's Pastamania, it took us like half an hour with 6-8 "nominations" that we finally decided to eat there; I always think that girls are e indecisive ones, ha. Came e movie part, we watched "Daywatch", which pamela isnt in :) All except me feel that its a crap show, they would have prefer "Resident Evil" instead. Well, I already knew e storyline ma. Ok la, I'm at fault, my insistence got in e way again :(

I need someone to keep me in check.

as if there's any other directions that matters..

Finally, a good relaxing time to update on e Bangkok trip.

Fun! Club! Eat! Shop! These are e four words to describe for e Bangkok trip! Lol, this time round I went to quite alot of places which I didnt go from e previous visits. The upmarket Paragon, they got a showroom of Porsche, Ferrari, BMW & Maserati on a single floor within it, cool huh? I think Pradeep & xiaoyi were quite fascinated with e ladybodys, kept making headcounts of those obvious ones, Zzzz. Clubbing scene there is fantastic, way better than ours; cheap if not free entry, CHEAP drinks(open one bottle of red label $45SGD nia) & LOTS & LOts & Lots of chiobu! I shall let e pictures do e talking then..

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Clubbing @ Bed Supper Club & Route 66

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Pradeep kept saying she's a guy. ZZzzzz, she's one of their waitress.

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New love interest

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Xiaoyi's got one too

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Me too again!

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Super chio smirnoff promoter, doesnt that give you guys a reason to go clubbing?

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Haha.. Actually, e fact is that e thais are very friendly. They will definitely obliged if you asked for a photo shot with them, of course, no itchy fingers :)

And I finally got to eat e roadside "zi char"! Which xiaoyi constantly kept away from, but utimately gave in cos of his hungry stomach; e food is very nice!

My new acquistion

Cos e 2 jokers didnt get any liquer, I got 2 more white wine, 1 Barcardi rum & 1 Finlandia lime vodka! While I got myself an Absolute pear & a bottle of white wine. However, but there are 7 bottles here. I managed to slip e Smirnoff green apple past customs, its a rare find in singapore lo, you wouldnt be able to get it from DFS, off local shelves will be at least $170SGD. Guess how much I got it in Thailand? $500Baht = $23SGD. It nearly became $750baht more instead, my luggage was screen before I got out of e arrival gate(1st time lo), must be e indian fucker!

Sian, time to book in liao.. Having field exercise tommorow.

Photos..

I dont know why, its always an initial felt of warmth whenever I take a look at e photos taken with you. But I always ended up in tears, why? Cos I'm upset you arent around & knowing e fact that you would never come back.. I did contemplate on deleting e photos, but I just cant do it. They are way too precious to me, e only memories I have left of you. I still remember clearly what you told me when we were in thailand, you were just sitting beside e bath tub & told me ... I really miss you alot... Sorry..

~Bangkok clubbing rocks~!!

I'm back from e land of smiles! Shall update later!

Three things

A friend in Mindef send this to me through email & I would like to share it with everyone.

3 Things in life that once gone, never come back

• Time
• Words
• Opportunity

3 Things in life that one should always have

• Hope
• Peace
• Honesty

3 Things in life that are most valuable

• Love
• Friends
• Self-confidence

3 Things in life that make a good person

• Sincerity
• Hard work
• Compassion

3 Things in life that can destroy a person

• Pride
• Greed
• Anger

I left out e last set cos its meant for christians. Of course, these arent e guidelines etc. on how your life should be or being a better person. Its just that I thought back my past actions, some of which are quite regrettable :( Well, cant do much about it, just have to keep on moving forward. Anyway, just my 2 cents worth :) Flying off to Bangkok in 12hrs time!