Lol, I fell asleep again.
Sleep hasnt been so easy for a long time, give me a pillow now & I will sleep anywhere :) This past one week has been surprisingly fast with lots of 'happenings'. Some good, some bad but mostly for e good, ha. Need to do some minor twitch to my daily timetable lo! What a week.
Breakfast lo!
10.57am
is yes. Wahahahahahahahahaha.. I nearly fell off e bed. Think I be smiling e whole day :D
Friday night.
I saw stars when I looked up & one literally caught my eye. It was shining brightly & for unknown reason, its seem familiar; as if I known before met. Another was shining nearby, uncannily identical, it seems to have lots in common. Together, they traversed along e path, posing their thoughts to each other.
6am. Am eating banana crumble with cookies & cream milkshake @ Park hotel's Swensen. Once again, I looked up, however they were no more longer there.
It was just right in front of me.
Coincidence? Ha. Perhaps fate is playing a part.
Had dinner with xilei @ Ichiban on wednesday night, kinda nervous, afterall is my 1st meeting with her. Funny lady, cant describe more here, lol. But it was nice, had loads of things to chat with her & I nearly want to stay on; in working hours. Sales was bad on that day, I wasnt in a mood to do deals, but was lucky that it crossed 1k for profit. Back at home, chatted until 3am plus & I decided to laze on e bed; ended waking up at 6am! But I really had a good sleep, no more tossing around & my mind was literally blank. When I finally wake up at around 11am, it seems like a fresh start. Ha, eventually had dinner with her again, kinda feel bad that she came down all e way & made her waited for an hour, hehe. Thanks for making my day!
TGIF!
Everything just came crushing down & I really dont know how to believe again.
Why put me through this?
Sigh, my p906 went out yesterday night. Been trying to resurrect e signal, but so far no positive sign :( Sales for this week seems to be quite bad, registered a below 1.2k profit for saturday, whats wrong? Work aside. It is really disheartening when people displaced your importance for something else; I felt my existance being ignored. Feels like shit.
On e other hand, received a msg this morning; greeting or wakeup msg? Lol, makes my day anyway :)
Fuck. I cant sleep.
Went to meet shih @ Raffles after work yesterday. Got 2 bottles of long island tea, a e33 & a bottle of chardonnay. Been a long time since I last tasted long island, damn nice; though not as potent as e one in Zouk. Poor girl, stressed out by e financial crisis(her department deals with shares) & also her failed r/s. On top of that, I gave her a very hard scolding on monday; didnt know I made her cried until joyce told me e next day :( So, had to check her out. We ended up sitting at e edge of e esplanade stage area, by then I was already on e 2nd bottle of e33, wahahaha. The surroundings have changed alot, bright lights fill e area - On e opposite left, integrated resorts, on e right, for e upcoming F1 race; prefer e darkness. However, e breeze compensated for e 'bright atmosphere', constant wind blowing on e face throughout e night, nice.. Sigh, I saw her cried again. Is it just so hard to love someone? I think so. Then why still love? Ha. I gave up explaining. Fell asleep at some point of time after I finished e chardonnay, to be woken up by e sound of singing. It was quiet all around, most of e couples already left & slowly, I sat upright & listened; a sweet voice, yet hidden with trails of sadness. I know that she always like to sing & it was damn smoothing, perhaps it was e alcohol effect. It carried on along e way till we reached lau pat sat & had our supper?breakfast? After which I sent her home & it was already past 6am when I hit e bed. Woke up for no reason at 845am, from then on, I kept drifting in & out, just simply cant get to sleep. & whenever I fall asleep, e calls & sms will just come in at e right time to disrupt it, damn. Long night later.
I miss you badly.
If every other night can be e same, I wouldnt ask for more. It came as a surprise that u would say sorry to me cos so am I, equally guilty as well.
I tried to search for that bonding, but it was somehow hidden deep inside yours. Too far to reach? Sigh.
Lets have a good weekend...
Been looking at e forums about japanese phones for e past 2hrs & I still cant find any nice ringtones for my p906i. Heh, mine is e black one. Initially, wanted to get e silver but scare of scratching it; black wouldnt be so obvious :)
Some nice features of this phone
Cons
Anyway, I just love this phone. Thinking of getting e SH906i too, wahaha. Sigh, I cant seem to sleep, been pondering over what happened. Often, I questioned myself on e choices I made. Bad habit of mine, always thinking back on past events. Well, I dont regret loving u. Perhaps its time to get some sleep..
Have u ever felt e need of having someone around, however not anyone?
I feel like switching off my phones, to be free of responsibilities & worries; for just one day. Perhaps take a stroll at a beach; two souls in their own world, hand in hand. It can go on for miles, till e time, when e sun sets & e two perching on a stone wall, watching it receding under e ocean line. For this union is possible, however lacks e willingness of one.
I hate being alone too.
Another wedding to attend.
Perhaps its e word, tends to invoke alot of my past memories. Woke up at 11am this morning, to find out that 3 of e lines are dormant; not e typical sunday. Well, I was expecting someone, but some things just wouldnt happen. In fact, being truthful to your love ones isnt a good idea afterall, as I experienced just now. Fell asleep; forced myself to sleep at 130pm. Paid off a few hours of my sleep debt, I realised I havent done my econs assignment yet, argh...
Time to prepare.
Shit day yesterday.
Was at Alexandra hospital in e morning, brought my grandpa for his routine checkup. I was kinda feeling uneasy(started e night before); previous scans revealed that he has a lump in his left lung & e lab tests that came back couldnt determine e nature of it. & so e doctor told me, he has early stage cancer; due to e years of smoking. Actually, he already quitted it years ago, but it was too late, damages been done & his lung is only functioning at 30% e most. He is already so old & I cant bear to tell him e truth, only telling him that e lump is still there. Options arent available to us also, surgery to remove is a nono, will complicate e function of his lung & so is chemotheraphy, which he wouldnt be able to take it.. All we can do is to let him do whatever he wants now, I really dont know what to say..
Saw dorcas @ Jurong point. Finally. Wanted to take my mind off e previous matter, so I decided to accompany for a short trip to one of e gift shop. She still look e same, still very sweet :) Ya, and she is pregnant with her 1st child, congrats~ Its kinda coincidence that she always appeared when am down & though we didnt chat for a long time; its as if we talk everyday & know me inside out? No, I not talking about my feelings, its just e pure comfort talking to someone who really knows u well. Over e years, I think I had wasted too much time on r/s & in e process, lose some which are precious to me. Time shouldnt be taken for granted.
u are precious to me.
Yuki! I want a maltese too! Ha!
Think my memory is failing me, nowadays it takes me a few second to recall things. Cant seem to remember as well as I used to be, perhaps I choose not to? e trappings of life; work & studies. I wonder how things be like 2 years down e road, 25 years old by then, ha. Just have some random thoughts, actually not. Had dinner with shih & she was telling me about her relationship, made me realised how insensitive I am to others' feelings. Maybe thats why I get misunderstood easily? I dont know.
Came across this sentence; meglio una bella bugia che una brutta verita.
Better a beautiful lie than an ugly truth. Does that gives one a good valid reason to lie? e truth can be brutal, but I will rather have it. Yet, for some, layers of deceit are built on, a bigger lie each time, created to cover e previous. Not knowing that when it crumbles, everything will be lost.
Some things just doesnt make sense, does it?
Tired. Tired. Tired.
Got to get to school earlier for some maths answer, arghh.. Past events, largely unrelated have been going through my mind. Hell, wtf am I really thinking?
I hate mondays.
I fell asleep then.
To wake up & find u leaning beside me.
Serene.
It is one of those reasons that I held on to so dearly. Yet, it matters nothing.
Nothing seems right nowadays.
The night has always been quiet. Perhaps for afew, when precious hours were stolen under e moonlight. It was at its best when e presence was just right beside & sleep wasnt one I need to worry of.
I need you.
Caught a cold.
At first, I thought it was an inflammation of e throat & ear; too much 'heaty' food, ha! Then, e mucus started dripping like nobody business(3 packs of tissues gone) & my head feels kinda heavy now. So much for resting yesterday, Zzzzz.. Met up with junrong @Bugis for dinner, happy father of one who is turning one soon! Time flies. We were talking about work & how life recently has been & e usual complains of work. Well, I kinda envious of him of having a family when he was telling me how his son wakes him up in e morning when he needed sleep e most. Ha, my stray thoughts again.
Its going to be a bad day at work today..arhh..
I hardly can have a good decent rest.
Morning was spent at e library, doing my maths. Which reminds me of e good old secondary school days.. Eh, wrong. Poly days. Waiting outside e library for it to open, then getting seats for my friends & I. Plugged in e mp3 player, listening to songs & solving e questions. Typical school life again. I really hate e fucking maths, alreally did it 7 years ago & still doing it again, WTF. Anyway, first time I broke e rules, eating porridge in e library, bought by some kind soul who was sitting next to me, HA.
After lunch, went down to Tanglin halt for my weekly stock take. Felt damn tired, decided to head home & rest. So, I bluffed junrong, citing I have work to do, waahahaha.. Reached home, lazed around for an hour before falling asleep on e bed Zzzzzz.. & woke up 15mins later. Just cant seem to sleep well, so I decided to go for a haircut & looks like ah Toot now.
Sometimes I feel that my worries are unfound. How?
