Why?

Fuck up.. I feel totally screwed up now, I really dont get it, why tell me now? I really hope that; no I didnt hope to hear that at all, why cant just let me be e last to know? Haha, its e biggest mockery of my life! Yet I can only cry & laugh at myself. Missing & loving is different? I dont think I can differentiate, though it doesnt make any difference even if I do. If given a choice to me now, I would fufill e promise I set 3 years ago. Perhaps, its just too late...