Hard.

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It took me damn long to even put down this sentence, cos I dont know how to start. Cant even really type down e thoughts on my mind now. I think its too fast for me to make any decision now, let alone to get any answer out of it. Fuck, e sense of urgency keep building up in me, but I cant do anything at all, can I?
I do mind, but to say it, will just make things more difficult. No mistake this time, I cant afford it, cos I dont want to lose you. I need more time to get it right, please dont prove me wrong...