Some thinking.

I have no other choice.

Chinese New Year

I miss e white cheongsum, ha. Its going to be a long dreadful day ahead, Zzzzz...

Its better to have loved & lost than to have never loved at all.

Made a trip down to library yesterday afternoon & got some books to cover my boredom for this 2 weeks. Then, met up with marcus for pool at cineleisure. Ha, I saw someone there; a shadow of someone, a lady in evening dress with high heels playing pool, shrugs~ Went off at around 5pm, got some groceries at ntuc for e evening dinner. I prepared seafood spaghetti; just a simple throw of mackeral, mushrooms, tomatoes, crabsticks & sotong(sticks), just one hour to cook nia, lol. Ya, a bottle of ice wine was thrown in(for shiyan), my collection down to 8 bottles of gold reserve liao; sent me some when you guys are in australia! Anyway, e dinner was e four of us, shiyan, kaira, peiwen & me. Yeah, e desserts from inter-continental hotel were nice; courtesy of peiwen. I going to get e rum & raisin cake next time! Followed by a brief talk cock session & movies at tiong bahru plaza; 27 dresses. Somehow, one of e before show trailers made an impression in my mind, 'The leap years.' Especially e sentence, 'its better to have loved & lost than to have never loved at all.' I guess everyone heard this before, but when was it e time that it really made us realised? Hmm... I finally understood it yesterday.

Back to e movie. Sia la, Katherine Heigl damn feminine ar! If only more singapore girls can carry off themselves like her, wahahaha.. Alright, e show quite nice ba, cant imagine that a girl can be bridesmaid for 27 times & actually enjoying it. Her social life must be damn bad, however it proved otherwise.
Conclusion:?
I want my future solemnisation to be held at e beach! If I ever get married, ha.

Lost of faith.

I'm damn stupid..

Not a good day.

Early morning wake up, saw 2 msg, but I dont know how or what to reply. So, I didnt reply. Anyway, I was lying on my bed running through my phone inbox & sent sms. Ha, I dont know wtf am I doing again.

Wasnt a pleasant day, I woke up with a splitting headache & runny nose. Somehow, couldnt find any replacement, so lan lan went to work. After 10mins, bus 195 came & I realise I forgot to bring wallet. As I was about to step out of e bus stop, it started to rain, cb. Went home, grabbed my wallet & was on a taxi down to queensway. Took a tablet of paracetamol & it made my headache worse. Sian, finally got to zhao at around 5pm. Then szehui called when I about to reach e exit; I forgot my phones. Arrr!! Went back to take it. Upon reaching e exit, I was greeted by e sight of rain again, cb....

Reached home, had a good sleep till around 8pm, went holland village to have coffee with shiyan & kaira. Lol, my last week with this crazy, fun-filled & loving couple before they jet off to australia. When will it be my turn? Ha. I did have my turn, not once, but twice & I considered myself both very lucky/unlucky to have met e 2 special ladies in my life; excluding my mother.
Lucky? Cos they were both very fine ladies, clever & most importantly(sadly) e type I would like to spend e rest of my life with. On e other hand, I wasnt lucky enough for e 1st, cos of a differ of faith. As for e 2nd, it was ruined by my own hands. Though a late salvage was done, it was already too late. Both taught me alot of things about life & even set some of e principles that I'm still living by. Of course, I no longer indulged myself in e past, they served as best, memories. Few days back, when I was running a high fever & lying on e bed, I longed so much for someone just to be by my side. Ha, none cos I was in camp. Oh ya, like to thank those who called & msg me, it kept my heart going when I felt like dying, LOL... 14 more days to go, I wonder..

Now already 4.13am, wtf am I still awake? Arrr....

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I am fucking miserable, do you know about it?

I only got myself to blame. Gdnite...

Laughing at myself.

in future whoever going to be ur wife gonna be lucky..

Felt a sharp prick in my heart when I saw this line addressed to me.

By someone who was close to me....

Ha.