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The only time u realised u are wrong is only when u are alone. I shall have an early night. Goodnight.

Green shoots.

I got a craving for asparagus now; looking at this month wine & dine issue. & they got introduce alot of nice dining places this month! Was thinking about chicken rice at 'wen dong ji' this evening, think off day must go & eat. Anyway, got 2 liquer for my birthday this year. A bottle of smirnoff Green apple from szehui & Grey goose from ken! Somehow, heard some news that shattered this short lived happiness of mine. Sigh..

24.

Neverending excuses? Am used to it. Though I always give e benefit of doubt, it never stops me from thinking otherwise.
Passed another year of mine, finally 24. Totally exhausted, but still, I would like to thank everyone who had made e slightest effort to wish me a happy birthday. & also to those who shelf their time to celebrate my birthday too, deeply appreciate it:)

I havent wish what I want to wish for. Cos I really dont know what I really want.

24.

Been burping non-stop e whole day.
Was at Butter factory yesterday night with junjie(e bdae boy), denise & afew other acquaintance. LOL, free flow until 1am! But what comes free wouldnt be good too, e vodka orange taste really like watered down orange juice & my favourite gin lime; cant really describe, it just sucks. Main agenda was to make junjie drunk & get him a nice girl. Well, he didnt get drunk but got to dance with a nice lady who is a mutual friend of mine. Still, I drank quite alot, 1st time gona get drunk by free flows! Dont know why, I cant seem to remember what happened in between in e dance floor except for e fact that junjie was enjoying himself, haha. Anyway, another round tonight, which am going to be low profile, have to take e damn IPPT on sat morning, Zzzzz.

Going to be 24 years old in 2 days time, hai.. I am still stuck at e starting point when i was 17, did nothing that am proud of, have nothing that is worth at least 5 digit & a profession I hardly call a profession. What went wrong? Nothing. I just didnt make full use of e choices I had, ha. But I arent bitter about it, just wondering about e question that I have been asking myself for e past few days.

& I think am getting near to an answer soon.

late night.

It seems to me that I didnt really make a choice that time. & after a serious talk, I realised that am not sure of what I want. Thinking back of e times when I was really alone in Jakarta, I fully understood e need of a someone to be there.

Lol, I need a good sleep.

Options.

Finally got e 'time' for a new post.

Been damn busy lately( am always busy, LOL), especially right after e holiday trip in Melbourne. Love e non-stop food actions; am actually thinking of e beef noodle soup now, LOL. I want more holidays, maybe every once a month? Its a long term goal, dont know when I can really achieve it. Besides, I still have 2 more years in university & maybe an extra 1 year, if I fail my modules :( Results are coming out, ahh.. Anyway, back to routine life. The usual love-hate r/s with my work, love e gadgets, hate e prices. Sometimes I do wonder what can I really do other than what I am doing now? The next few years are e stepping stones for e next stage of my life, yet I can only see myself stepping right into thin air. Why e negative thoughts? Perhaps e past 2 weeks let me had a glipse of how screwed up things can be when one become too complacent.

& it made me rethink my current options. Sad to say, I have none better.

Thoughts.

The perfect union. Makes one think why is it always so hard to make things perfect; without realising e imperfect self.

Being imperfect is e beauty of itself.