It never achieves equilibrium.

Ha, I just got a undeserved praise, which seems to dull in comparison with my track record of being a nasty guy. Perhaps, e ways I used to solve conflicts has always been too extreme, or in other words, unacceptable, that truly, I deviated from e real purpose of solving. However, soft approaches, that I have undertaken didnt produce good results either. Which makes me think, should I just leave things to let them be?

1. So, how long do I have to wait?
2. Will it really materialize? Work out by itself?
3. Meanwhile, letting more conflicts spawn out of it.

Which is why, all e time, I didnt leave them be, because I cant? Because they cant? Well, to be honest, if given a choice, I would definitely walk away, if it ever really helps :(

Just a routine self reflection after Yuejuan made me smile :) Anyway, fuck my throat now; inflammation on e throat lining, even swallowing my saliva makes it damn painful.
Argh...

Test test test.

These are indeed testing times.

O.O

Those conflicting moments? I wish I never had. But at least, they taught me what I wanted to cherish.

I should learn how to ...

Translation.

Sometimes, I find it hard to translate my thoughts into words; as in, e correct words. Everytime, when that happens, I knew what I was saying was wrong & sadly, most of e time, too late to retract. Over e years, I managed to improve abit, but still, its never enough. It always start out with a heart of concern, but end up hurting more. & I never knew how to console anyone & yet, its one of those important things in life that everyone knows about. A combination of both makes me a person whom u really want to avoid, especially when u are down.

I need a mind blank, not blank mind.

Soft toys.

The look when she was clutching e soft toy made her seem so vulnerable, like a little kid overwhelmed with joy. And e smile, gave me a sense of fufillment, which I cant really explain.

Nights like this, I wish it will never end.

Jades.

Lol. Perhaps I am not cut out for this. So much for a decision, that doesnt really differ much from an opinion.

And when silence turns into hate,
It's time to communicate.
And I always will be where you are.

241am. I realised I am wrong this time round.

Past one week.

It was quite a busy & tiring week. Lol, I cant even remember much of what happened! Except that I went sentosa on friday!

Highlights:

• Sentosa Luge got a new course! went thru both of it :D
• Dropped one of my slippers while on e skyride.
• Cineblast cheated me of my $; e log ride sucks big time.
• Great night performance @ The songs of e sea.
• Had Green tea milk tea by Pokka for e 1st time :)
• Finally fufilled my night time beach walk!
• Tanqueray's London dry gin is awesome. My bottle was really too small, sad.
• Good night sleep at Rasa sentosa
• Nice morning breakfast buffet @ Silver shell cafe

Actually, e best part was at 12am plus strolling down e beach & finally settling down at a quiet spot, enjoying e tranquil surroundings & listening to e waves clapping.

I remembered! Eddy treated us to dinner @Botan on tuesday! Wahaha, damn nice jap dinner. Thanks bro!