When does it ends? I really dont know. Its already been more than 1 & a half years, yet am still stuck with e occasional flashback, memories. Actually, I will be more than satisfied to see u, just to know that u are doing well; which u are. Ha, I really need a good rest...
Just finished bathing & should be sleeping now. Somehow, something is bothering me, or rather been on my mind for e past 2 days. I still cant get it right; missing someone or missing e feeling. 2 more months to make things right, for I dont wish to make a wrong move & regret later on. Sigh.. Cant things be much more simpler?
Been too tired to write for e past few days; damn tired by e time I reached home. Everytime I login to e new post page, my mind will be thinking of resting on e bed. Next moment, am on e bed, sleeping soundly, ha! Working is really damn tiring, have to face all sorts of customers everyday & perhaps, cheat most of them too, ha! Well, maybe not cheat, sales talk; damn repetitive everyday. Even when I am off, cant relax at all; schedule still damn pack. 2 months after ORD, somehow I do miss e times in army, where I can go take a nap whenever, wherever I want to, as long as my job is done. After a 2 long years of absence in e company, except for working on sundays & company meetings during my ns stint, I feel that am no longer interested in doing sales; in mobile phones. However, e challenge to acheive maximum profit at e expenses of e customers' wallets still excites me. To see e company grow; well, its more of an obligation & also a gratitude to someone who has been part of my guiding process for e past 7 years. Sigh, meeting coming up soon, hope things turn out well..
Fell asleep before 1am yesterday night, yet I still feel that I dont have enough sleep. Wake up to see so many msn message not replied :( Ahh, damn tiring to work everyday! But I dont really have a choice, cos need to save up $ for my degree fees. Siao la, I never write any cv before, anyone with a good one? So that I can copy, heh. Looks like I have to take a half day off tomorrow; need a haircut, need to pay bills & settle my sim stuff. Great, so many things to do within a short time. Time to go for work!
Zzzzz, life's really a damn boring routine. No more late night lan gamings, drinking, clubbing & not even a decent chat over coffee. Too busy at work & it ends too late, hence e only venue of entertainment is home; dota & dota & dota, plus e occasional chat on msn with e usual lot.
I actually wrote this post at 11pm, but decided to save it & continued on e next day. However, thanks to alan, I cant seem to sleep now. Why? Same symptoms as him, but different perspective. Hence, am writing whatever that is going through my mind. Its nice to wake up in e morning or awaken by e sms tone, to see a greeting message that will really make your day. Near lunch and/or dinner time, some idiots will ask whether you have your meals yet. Someone who be there for you with no questions asked nor expectations from you. Best of all, placing alot of faith in a person whom you dont really really know at all. Strange isnt it? I really dont know what am I missing.
Its incoherent, I know.
e morning cold water doesnt seem to quench my thirst at all. It just feel not right; on e way I handle things. How am I suppose to judge things clearly where e line separating truths & lies is so blurry? I do want to see things change, of course, for e better. I am listening all e while, attentive to my surroundings. Still, nothing happened. However, I didnt forsake my faith, though u returned it.
Perhaps, I shouldnt have bother at all.
Words dont suffice.
Finally, I managed to solve 2 problems that has been tagging me for weeks.
Then another one pops up, great.
Sleep.
