Too much of e past.

I stared at e blank space for a few seconds.

Several images ran through my mind. 1st, in sequence, e fight that nearly broke out between 'Xuan Feng' & ' Qi Lin'. The macdonald birthday meal with joyce visiting bengzhee house for e 1st time. A 6 years ago phone call, that sow e seed of what I am today. Last bicycle trip I took in depot road. & perhaps, e most memorable out of these, e last night spent @ my depot road house with no lights, no fan but just a big purple candle. It happened when I was waiting outside beng's house just now, right after our night run. & it was e very same spot that I had e call. Ha, not trying to link it to anything, in fact there isnt any link at all. It just that, flashback of e past happens too frequently to me. Worst thing is, I indulged too much in it; used to. However, something seems to be missing recently. Of course, its not as if I can read myself, knowing when & what flashbacks I be getting.

Its really very hard to say.

New term.

The past one year has been a big mistake.

Spent too much time on work, too little time on studies & I was too complacent about myself. My 2nd school term is starting in 2 weeks time & I have decided to dedicate a 4 days study week. Also, to get my driving lesson & perhaps, exercise more to get a better body shape. Hahaha.

Zzz.

Got myself fucked.

Family.

Finally got to meet terrence last week! Lol, been trying to meet him up for more than a year, but I always forget about it. Anyway, had dinner with him at one of e restaurant in Jurong point; forgot which, was too full to enjoy it :( Had a chat with him, e usual questions. & he is doing quite well in his bus chartering business; drives a 3 series bmw o.O However, he is too busy to get into a relationship, or rather no time to socialise due to e working hours. Well, I kinda envy e fact that he managed to spend time on his family; bringing them out every sunday for a nice family meal. All along, spending time with my family has always been one of my top priorities in life, yet nowadays its damn hard to have a meal together with them. As in, all of us have our own commitments, I might be working on weekends, my brother might be in camp, my parents might have their own pre-planned activities. Nonetheless, I managed to had lunch with them on sunday & I simply love e feeling. Of course, I wouldnt say that to my parents, nor to my brother, haha.

We just need to find e time, dont we? :)

Lol.

Lol, it somehow amazes me; those foolish things that I did in e past. But then, I dont see why I wouldnt do them again? Heh.

Matarese.

Finished 'The matarese circle' yesterday night. I had mixed emotions about e whole story plot, as in it really stirred e feelings inside me. Really well written, but it wasnt e action that touched me, it was e relationship part. It describes a man, in seek of e truth, struggles with e fact that he had to trust & cooperate a man who assasinated his wife years ago & also to come to terms with a new found love that he can lose in any moment.

Ah.. I wana sleep liao..

Arghh..

Been spending e past few days at home, nursing my body. However, I dont seem to be recovering even after taking e medicines. My body can be very hot at one moment & e next moment, breaking into cold sweat. Funny thing is even when my forehead is cold, e temperature that i measured under my tongue can be 38.5. And I couldnt sleep at all, keep waking up every 30-50mins, which then I will take a big gulp of water & measure my temperature. Probably, I might have broken e guiness world of records for making e most dreams in one night. Its kinda creepy; I can wake up when am dreaming halfway & continue it when I fall asleep. Some of them are quite strange too, Zzzzz.. The worst thing is e migraine, makes my head damn 'heavy' & unable to concentrate. Anyway, when I went to e doctor, he told me that am young & not in any health risk group, therefore normal medicine + water + plenty of rest will do. Wtf, but am still having fever now!! Hopefully, I can recover by tomorrow morning; cant afford to miss my pay! My damn school fees are coming!!