Elsewhere.

2nd week of school.
Principle of banking & finance - Got to know stuffs on mutual funds & how it works. Kinda interesting, perhaps I will try my hand on it next month. Maths, going deeper in differentiation & integration, though I hate them, they keep me awake. Stats boring as usual. Econs, 1st lesson this week, very interesting which explain why I didnt doze off for e whole lesson.
Been distracted lately, I cant seem to focus on whatever I am doing. Take running for example, I cant seem to control my breath. & during lectures, my sight kept shifting towards e phone, how? Sometimes I just wish for that day to stay locked in time, so that I can repeat it again. If not, just a minute so that I can make you smile while I keep e whole world at bay. Or just a few seconds, so that I can look into your eyes & peer thru e window of your mind.

Not trying to complicate things, I just want you.

Birthday.

Finally.
23 yrs old.
Had a dinner yesterday with e secondary school bunch & chencao; minus joel & siqi. Almost all e food were bought; there was sushi, soft shell crab from Fiesta, pizza from pizza hut(-.-), unagi, cheese sausages & salad. Ha, its been like more than 10 years since I last spent my birthday at home. Well, e days of celebration are gone & just a simple dinner will do :) Followed by a few rounds of drink( emptied my baileys & e fruit wine gui bought) & lastly, 'Love guru' at causeway point. Thanks for coming & for e presents too!


Sigh, my mind was literally elsewhere.

...

Damn tire, but I keep on waking up.
Perhaps its e longing of a presence.

Try to sleep again.

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At e instance, I realised how important some things are. Things dont change overnight, one need to give time in order to let them materialise.

I am. One of e best days.

School again.

I miss e kisses. Dang.

Went for e UOL- SRC(student relation council; i think?) intereview yesterday morning. Lol, its an interview to get into e council, I thought. The interview was to identify e strength & weakness of e interviewee that can fit into one of e project being held by e council this year, diao. So, I kinda regret going for it. My timetable is already super tight, where e hell am I going to find time? Ya, after 10pm perhaps or before 12pm in e morning, Zzzz. Nonetheless, I still have to get into e council, cant afford to have no CCA during university life right? Heh. Finished e interview at around 1030am, so headed down to boonlay; took a nap on e floor of my shop, lol! I was damn tired la, slept at 4am, woke up at 6am to burn e damn discs, before leaving e house at 8am for e interview, shagged.

Hope everything turns out fine.

School starts!

Lectures are fucking dry.

First day of class : 1st lesson Maths, gan. Seriously, I hated maths back in secondary school & my favourite subject was chemistry, which explained mainly e 'chemistries' I created back then :) Anyway, take a look at my 'O' levels result, e subject with e best score is maths & e worst? english followed by chemistry, Zzzz. Anyway, maths is e only subject that kept me sober most of e time in class. Why? Cos I have questions to solve! My brain tends to go idle attending lectures; its like e LCD screen going into screensaver mode when e computer is left idle for awhile. & e temperature is fantastic, somehow e cold keeps me awake sometimes.

Today: 2nd day of school.
1st lesson, Stats. Fucking early in e morning 830am, I had to wake up at 645am in order not to be late. Still, I was late cos I woke up at 705am instead. Got my usual corner seat; easy to dash for e exit in case of emergency. Hmm, I dont think I remember what happened, most of e time I was struggling to keep awake. Lunch at e foodcourt, ate alone; think thats what will happened for e next 2 yrs, SAD. 2nd lesson, Principle of banking finance. Sounds cool, but in fact fucking dry. Cant blame e lecturer, its mainly words & no graphic which work out best for my brain; 99% idle most of e time. Saw jesline after lesson, OMG she cant recognise me even when I was standing right in front of her, must be e spectacle & my kuku hair. Then, went down to tanglin to get some goods, followed by coffee @Holland village; just like e good old times. As I was settling down, a notion struck me, it was e unoccupied seat. Makes me wonder whether u be still around & if u do, what will u be? Endless of if. Anyway, chencao joined me later on & we went to Clementi food centre for dinner. Damn nice lady, treat me on our 1st meal together, heh.

Back to work later.

Warmth.

Warmth.
It envelopes me & fades my troubles away; temporarily.

I always try to catch e beautiful sight of yours whenever I wake up, but realised that you arent always there. The familiar scent still lingers around but it has been fading away slowly in my mind. It happens to me almost everyday & without fail, this rush of nostalgia builds up in my mind every morning. My baileys with milk isnt helping either.

Maybe that explains why I cant seem to sleep after I wake up.