So, seems like I am e one who forsaken everything? I am tired of hearing this & that, what I hear its always different from what I see. Nothing seems convincing; I cant even see any effort being done to make me convince. I put on a last ditch effort to save whatever that I can, but.. Does a return of faith signals e end to everything? I certainly dont wish to see it happen.
Dashed.
My heart sank when I saw e message, mind just blanked out for awhile. The news that I had been secretly hoping against of, finally came. Sigh... What am I suppose to do now?
Work - Been working for e past few days, e new branch in Boon lay seems to be faring quite well. Lots of consumers, hence lots of customers. Damn busy, I wouldnt get to sit down for more than 4minutes; e crowds keep coming.
Family - a long lost cousin of mine suddenly sms me. Actually not long-lost, just that I see her only once every year/2 years; which is during Chinese new year. So, I didnt know who it was at first when she asked me to attend my grandma's birthday. Been waiting this for a long time & am very relieved that I didnt lose this part of my family.
Was having dinner with shih @ Xin wang. Haha, back to queenstown again. I was telling her about e obstacles ahead; I didnt know what to do. However, it does convince me that its really worth a try to hurl myself totally into it.
Sigh, I hope it doesnt turn out to be a false alarm.
Finally, home sweet home at 3am. Damn exhausted, was still having headache, good thing was that e fever subsided. When I woke up at 12pm, e 1st thing was to call my mum, enquired her about my grandfather's lung radiological report, she didnt say much; I saw e report at night. It wasnt really good or bad. Good in e sense, e lump that e doctors discovered initially is currently not malignant. On e downside, it might grow in size & developed into a cancerous lump. Yet nothing can be done now, not even an operation to remove it(too dangerous, cos located just inside e lung). Sigh, another 2 more months to e next checkup, am glad that he doesnt know a single thing about it & is having a better appetite now compared to e last few months. Afternoon, went over to Tanglin to pass e spoilt phones to dave, but he wasnt around. Luckily, qinqing called to ask me help her fix e computer, which I went up & ended having a long conversation with her. I find it strange that she touched on several issues that only a limited few know. Of course, I was intrigued by it at first, kept on pressing her on e source who leaked it out. Perhaps, leaked isnt e word? Well(after thought), it doesnt matter, as it has always been what I wanted to do; didnt say out cos some people might get e wrong idea. What really worries me e most, are e ones who are around me. I was told, several times, by numerous people; to be wary of people around me. Not that people cant be trusted, but I trust people too easily. Whatever thats been said out, cant be taken back; no matter how much you want to. Be clear of who's friend or foe? That's fucking hard, how am I supposed to do that? Sigh, conspiracy theories I heard alot, yet there's one that bears some truth in it. Thats... Fucking scary.
I was on a drinking binge, one bottle of Hoegarden first, followed by a bottle of chardonnay pinot noir..Then kahlua with absolute pears. Lol, I kept on rattling to my mum about my past r/s failures. Downed a few more shots of tequila & lastly, one half glass of malibu.
I hitted e pillows & got lost in e reveries, again.
Monday.
Was running a high fever, diarrhea & having migraine. Fucking shit, it was damn miserable, I had to wear a jacket e whole day & find buyers for e remaining batch of goods. Dinner was bad; my stomach was constantly in pain(might be gastric, didnt dare to eat for e whole day) On e other hand, e presence made up for e difference. After which, I nearly clinched a deal & was about to receive e money; e goods failed me. The specific china phone model cant be charged after 2mins of charging, wtf!? Great, e deal was called off. However, e buyer was nice enough to tell us that he's willing to get other models from us provided they are working fine; well placed of faith huh. So, I left Roxy & headed for e airport. Its nice to have people sending you off at e airport, but it was e 1st time I received a gift in an airport. Ha, I also gave a gift to someone else; a japanese. Ya, must be a japanese girl, Zzzz.. Is a guy alright, apparently he didnt know that there is an airport tax, hence didnt have enough ruppiah on him. Without thinking, I whipped out my envelope & passed him a 50k ruppiah bill(around 8 SGD) & he thanked me profusely. Chivalry huh? Ha.
