Past few days

Time pass damn slow for this past few days.
Sunday was e best, got recalled back for guard duty cos I was supposed to be e guard commander. Apparently, my name was on a separate guard duty forecast which nobody was aware of; e planner didnt send e attachment to my email, Zzzzz... I had to rush down in a cab & ended up with a fare of $11, increment of $2 o.O sad. Sigh, how am I suppose to suppress it; when its getting stronger each day..
Monday couldnt be worse, after a month long absence of exercise & excessive drinking, I was thrust into a biathlon training; 5 sets of swimming(4x laps) + run (800m). Damn tiring la, but its good cos I thought I gained weight during e holidays; turned out that I lost 1kg, e weighing machine cocked up ba. Another bad news, my branch found out that I havent clear my ippt window for e 2nd work year & I have to pass it before I ord. Fuck la, I can only do 3 pull up now... The night was abit screwed, hence I decided to take a walk. Took a train to Clarke quay & walked along e same old path to Zouk. Guess it didnt help, cos it reminded me of that night. Not that its bad, but my main purpose was to clear my thoughts, to have a clear mind. So, I snapped a picture & did something stupid again.
Back at home, my mum was telling me that her one of her aunt visited her, e latter knows how to read into a person's future just by a look at him/her. Well, I dont usually believe in those stuffs, but no harm listening right? Somehow I must admit, most of what she said are quite true & bear in mind that, I wasnt around when she spoke to my mum about it? My mum related to me about all e aspect in my life but I laughed when it came to e r/s part. She told my mum that I will meet my wife within this 2 years, LOL... We shall see huh?
Today morning.
Woke up very seh, went to camp at 6am. Kept having migraine, finally popped a pill down & I felt damn dizzy onwards. Arrr, I have biathlon training tommorow morning & my sunburnt wounds havent heal yet, great..
& my hopes for tonight just got dashed. Sigh..

tire.

No mood to write anything, too tire too. I go sleep le..

...

Fuck.. I cant do it.

Distance.

Late again.. For movies
Watched AVP2 in Cineleisure with beng & chang yesterday afternoon, no comments for e show. Evening,went over to Vivocity shopping with my brother & his gf, but there wasnt anything I want :( except for e heels! Then, went back to Cineleisure again to meet up shih shih for dinner, followed by a chat @ starbucks. Its always nice talking to her, though this time round she's e one giving me sound advice & I'm heeding it? Ha. Anyway, it is my 1st time seeing her with makeup & wearing bareback somemore O.o finally know how to dress up nicely liao, muahahaha.

Around 10pm, met up with james, marcus, crystal & joanna. I was drinking ginger el all e while & none knew about it except marcus, lol. Somehow, just wasnt in e mood to drink until e long island tea came; partly cos my stomach was in pain(must be e dairy products again). Everything was fine until we were at e 'colorful' bridge which was around 4am; I broke down. Its been a long while that I last cried so hard, with my whole heart out. Really hate myself for that decision, am really sorry joyce. Forgive me.

I mentioned my only resolution last night.
However, it seems irrelevant now.
Distance. It just started.

Check check.

Time flies damn fast. Today is my last day of 'holiday', been on leave for nearly 1 month & it feels like just one week? & I finally went to collect my poly cert, to realise that I didnt bring any identification when I reached e examination office, Zzzzz. Ya, so much things happened during this period. Some significant ones; I realised I have moved on & alot of things could have been done if I had let go earlier. But its someone that made me let go, cos knowing myself too well, I wouldnt be able to do it alone.

• I'm seriously bad in my financial mangement; my capital is running dangerously low & I didnt keep my spending in check.
• This year is going to get tough if I get into university, expenses going up exponentially!
• I need to source for efficient, streetsmart & trusthworthy partners to get my deals going; to expand network!
• I have fallen in love.

I know e last one is a big surprise to almost everyone, including myself. How it happened, I also dont how to explain cos I also dont know how it really came about. Most important thing is, I'm glad to have met you, though it seems that I disrupted alot of peace along e way. Still, I dont know how to convey my words correctly at e right time, & its damn hard to get some things out of e mouth when I'm right in front of you, arrr.. Yet, I felt that you understand? Ha. You decide.

2nd day of new year & it sucks.

Slept damn early last night, think before 1am ba. Guess that e past one week late nights has taken a toll on my body. But I woke up at 9am, sent a msg then fell asleep again. Woke up at 12pm to wake people up & 5mins later saw a msg from xiaoyi that made my day ' Got guard duty today, draw arms at 430pm' , WTF... I'm having off this whole week, still in my holiday mood lo, nb. This is definitely a good start for e year :) For once, give me a very good news can? arrrr....

1st day of 2008.

Yesterday night was fucked up. I think my feelings were at e best during meals only, had nice chicken rice somewhere at bedok with shiyan & kaira for lunch. Followed by dinner at Sushi tei with beng, yongchang, jingui, peishan, alan, kenjia & siqi, thanks for coming guys; am very sorry cos I snapped at some point. I was in a damn bad mood & long island tea at Balcony didnt help much too. However, reminiscing our school days past did cheer me up alittle, reminds me of e stupid things we did in secondary school. One or two names did pop out again & it did make me feel quite sian for awhile; just awhile. My cousin joined me at around 10pm & I was already planning to go home. Then I accompanied her to Chijmes to meet her friend for barely 5mins? Zzzzz... Next stop was to go home & drink until next morning, but I still went over nicholas's place for drinking. Saw fireworks when I passed by Boat quay in e cab & I immediately thought of you. Wrong, I was thinking of you all e while & that was e last straw; I wanted to see you badly. Drank finished e baileys & barcardi when we reached. Mei, you are a damn lousy drinker, ha. Anyway, I have my 1st major loss of e year, around $60 blown on poker & blackjack. Back home, I still have to take care of my cousin who was knocked out in e 1st place, luckily she became sober abit after bathing. I couldnt sleep, was idling in my room until e last msg which was around 550am? & I woke up at 9am; my mind is just too occupied.

So much for everything, so much for nothing.
I still choose to wait.