Saturday, November 17, 2007

Sigh...

Tire.
Whole body is aching, only get to reach home at 630am this morning; was having a conversation by e riverside bar after leaving Zouk. I was rather speechless when I heard e family background, quite shaken by e doings of e parents to their children, arent parents e one that are suppose to provide care, warmth & shelter to their sons & daughters? I feel sad for her & I could see e pain in her eyes especially when she was struggling to control her tears. Hai..no wonder she appears to be so gloomy most of e time. Suicide came across to her umpteen times & luckily she didnt do it. Such a bright & clever girl, yet have to live with this kind of shit all e time, I really admire her strength & bravery to go through it. Hope that good things turn out for you :)

We often question about whether we have choices; we do have, for most of it. Some are however beyond our control & somehow it proved to me this morning...

Friday, November 16, 2007

Loss.

To bore to blog.

Ha. Finally home! Been staying in camp since tuesday cos of e implementation of 5BX(5 Basic exercise) which is basically 5 sets of simple exercises to warm up your body in e morning, followed by a 1.5km run & then .... back to sleep again, Zzzzz. Fuck la, it has to conduct every moring at 615am, how to book in before that? When e gates only open at 6am? Luckily I managed to know of this new game, "Final fantasy tactics" on psp, good enough to keep my boredom at bay, ha. 3 more weeks to my long break! & I'm already in holiday mood! Actually quite afew significant event took place this few days, but I cant remember of any now :( Strange huh, I often have this kind of memory lapse, then I will recall it after a few days or maybe e next moment... Till den.

Saturday, November 10, 2007

Sigh.

I just realised that I'm a fucking failure.

Friday, November 9, 2007

Strange.

Its hard to be nice sometimes.
Especially when you try your best to accomodate others, but people just... Sigh.. But I guess $ is always e main culprit, which easily sways your choices from black to white. I have & always been honest about e pricing of stuffs, giving e best to my friends, so that they can save more? More than often, I dont earn a fucking single cent, e most 10bucks for a high volume transaction? & it makes me wonder why some of them would rather pay a higher price to others for e stuffs, when I can actually give at a lower price & yet provide a 100% assurance? Strange but true, that those friends that often buy from me without questions & doubts are merely acquaintances? So, my advice is if you dont trust me, then dont ask me. If you want to know, dont doubt e facts after I present to you. Of course, I know everyone wants to get e best price & there is no harm asking, but its damn frustrating when you get doubt(not to mention; your close friends), dont everyone?

Watched "The gameplan" yesterday, quite a good show, I think I teared during some scenes, dont laugh! After e show, I was waiting for e last bus for a good 15mins, then I realised no more bus liao, Zzzzz. Morning was already bad enough, I only realised I didnt bring my ez-link when I boarded e bus, luckily I got some loose change, haha. So.. I made a call to siqi, asked him out for supper, but he was at boat quay drinking. Alright, change of mood, suddenly felt like drinking. Somehow, I felt like taking a walk & wasnt in a rush too. Lol, it takes just 20mins to walk from Plaza singapura to Boat quay! To my dismay, its a karaoke pub, nothing much to write on. I went home after 2 mugs & I think it caused me to have gastric pain. Wrong. When I reached home, there were food! Mutton curry! Fried fillet! Honey glazed chicken! Huat la! I gobbled up e mutton, it tasted... heavenly! Omg la!

So, I had gastric due to my skip of dinner, hee.. Anyway, my apologies, thanks for being understanding at times; beng :) Time to prepare for work!

Thursday, November 8, 2007

Long weekend!

Yeah..Long weekend till tuesday next week! But I'm working today, Zzzz... Sian, seems like there is nothing to write. Oh, watched 'Rendition' with my brigade yesterday. Quite a draggy show, lots of dialogue, little action. Definitely not a hit with e girls, lol... Hmm, what should I do tonight?

Monday, November 5, 2007

Past few days.

Friday night.
Total mess.
After having dinner at Vivocity "No signboard" restaurant, me, victor, james, marcus & guojun went over to Zouk. Initial plan was to make marcus drunk but guojun got drunk too. Poisons used were 2 jugs of long island tea, 2 jugs of vodka lime, 1 jug of whisky dry, 1 jug of vodka orange (for victor cos he drove), 2 shots of tequila & 2 glasses of graveyard(REALLY suck la). After I finished e last jug, we hit e dance floor. Then e problem started. I dont know what really happen, 1st thing I knew, guojun & marcus were being pushed away & e guy who pushed them was swearing & telling them to back off from his girlfriend. Noticing e commotion, a bouncer came over to whisk our group away except me, cos I was appeasing that guy, explaining that e both were drunk. Thinking that it has been settled, I went to e gents. However, no one was in sight when I was out of Zouk. 1st call was to james & he told me that they were at e carpark, so I proceeded there. Still, I couldnt find there, so I made another call. Then he told me they were remanded at e private carpark & e other party decided to press charge against both of them. Little did I know that e 'victim' & her boyfriend got after those 2. I couldnt get access to them & through e phone, I was told that e victim accused e 2 of them of groping under her skirt, WTF! Soon, e police came over & statements were taken, guojun was e only one brought to e station. Then, all of them were allowed to come out. After some discussion, I approached e 'victim' & her friends; tried to talk them out of not pressing charges. Hai, they just wouldnt budge, stating e two of them were too 'xialan'. Really damn fuckup, 1st time kena such thing, somemore I didnt even seen e girl before until they were released from e carpark, Zzzz.

Saturday, all of us were worried about guojun cos we havent heard anything from him yet & his parents were unaware of it. I heaved a relief after knowing that he was released at around 4pm. Now waiting for e outcome, hope that nothing happen to him.
Met up with peiwen, nicholas, shiyan for dinner at tanglin halt. I was late, prior to that, watched 'Brothers' with beng at JEC. Sian, I lost this time round, around $30 for e poker ba. Haha, siqi joined us at a later time, by then, 3/4 of e bacardi rum was finished & he suggested to go Zouk -.- Which we did go, haha.. Peiwen & I took aaron's car, I arent an expert on cars, but it was definitely tune to e max. Imagine 3 high idiots on that car, including e driver, weaving in/out of traffic; dangerous indeed. So, I decided. After getting my license, I sure go get a used civic & 'zhen' it, wahhahaa. Alright, I miss e gig in Zouk, cos most of e time was in Phuture & none were trance lovers, except peiwen who left early.

Sunday.
My suspicions were confirmed. There is really something wrong with my stomach. I realised that e next day after each drinking session, I bound to develop stomach pain & e stools which came out initially will always be black! And I also had diarrhoea for e whole morning, reported for work at 2pm instead. Had a company meeting & I wasnt really happy about e contents. For which, I kept quiet though it wasnt my issues that I'm unhappy about. I'm just 'feel' displaced. We then went for supper at Park royal hotel's Swensen, previously known as Crown prince. Didnt know that e black pepper seafood pasta is so nice! Finally a change of menu for me; I always & only order fish & chips, lol. Maybe I was too tire, fell asleep twice on e tabe, lol.

Today
Diarrhea is back! So, I took a day MC. Hehe, another reason is that I was too tired, only got home at 3.30am leh! Spent e whole day sleeping, really sleeping, slept like a log. Met shih shih for dinner, that silly girl made a decision without concluding 1st on saturday night & is now pondering on e conclusion, Zzzz. Ha, I think I see a glimpse of hope. Ahhh.. My eyelids are closing soon.

Friday, November 2, 2007

November

November.
I used to have a celebration on a specific date on this month. Coincidently, in a bad way, that was when e r/s came to an end on this very month too. I realised that I'm still not ready for anyone else, though e notion of getting involved with someone nice often struck me hard. Yet, I still miss her alot. Sometimes, at work, I can be miles away, deep in thoughts of her. I know.. "wtf right?" Cant help it though, been trying to solve that la. Then, e strange thing is that everyone wants to see me attach badly, cos its more norm for me? Haha, think I dont want meh? Its not easy to get acquainted with girls easily, not to mention a nice one? Even so, not every nice girl is e type that I will want. Hoho, luckily I'm blessed to know alot of nice girls... but only one or two is my type? & e sad thing is, they are attached. However, I think it just bores down to fate, already resigned myself to this statement "If it will happen, it will happen" . :)

Marcus's birthday tonight, need to get out soon to get his present.
I see red wine coming! Wahahaha... Diao, I suddenly thought of "动感超人" , Zzzzzz.